I don't know what I want anymore :(

You feel so terribly far away. Distant, in every aspect of the word. There shouldn't be this constant waiting for the next time I see you; this giant, pregnant pause between each moment is excruciating. I'm holding my breathe so tight just waiting that I feel like I'm drowning; everything is so precariously held together in my mind right now. If I ( Read more... )

Something's missing, and I don't know how to fix it

I don't know why I've been exceptionally 'on edge' the past few days. Blame it on the female hormones or  not, a lot of annoying things have been piercingly prominent, more than ever. People and their antics and their attitudes are getting to me; I don't enjoy classes or being in school as much as I did previously. I don't know if it's just because ( Read more... )

There is nothing more destructive than discontentment- you lose your grip and start questioning everything you've ever stood for or believed in. New experiences can be good, but not being grounded solidly in anything can turn it into something quite dangerous.

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My two weeks in Ohio with shannon are coming to an end :( I've spent most of the weekdays reading, facebooking (DUH!), updating myself on current affairs, watching tv-- Basically, lazing around, in a good way. Weekends were spent with Shannon, making day trips to more liveable cities like Cincinnati and Columbus and visiting nearby farms. I've ( Read more... )

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Study week always makes me feel ( Read more... )