ok. i will keep my word to myself and to those that read this at the same time. shannon and mike should be the only two reading this. if u r not them, u probably wont know what this is all about, and if u r what i think u r, u r gonna read this no matter what i say ( Read more... )

u know what? fuck this shit. my journal is not a fucking chat room. it is A FUCKING JOURNAL. this is supposed to be something i can write in without fear of what it is that i have to say. from now on, my entrie will be unreadable or i wont write at all. thank you all for commenting and causing a conversation. i hope my little problems gave you all ( Read more... )

shannon told me something very important tonight. i have power over her. i dont want it. she said that i have the power to fuck her over. i dont want it. i mean, i like having the ability to make her laugh and smile, but why would she say such a thing to me? is she trying to hint at something i dont know? it hurts sometimes thinking about if i ever ( Read more... )

maybe i think to much in a perfect sense. i guess. i dont know why. but happiness to me is something so fragile that even a breath could kill it. well, heres some rantings for all you fans of mine. it seems that the norm for the past few days has been to call jon stupid. ha ha. why is that? why do people constantly talk down to me? what the fuck ( Read more... )

"I am not your rolling wheels ( Read more... )

"Livin' life is but a dream ( Read more... )

ahhh the summer breeze has lazily washed over my face and a new world has appeared in front of my blind eyes. tonight was great. shannon and i seem to be working toards something. i invited her over friday and she accepted. this is wonderful. mike is asleep and i am full of mcdonalds breakfast food. no worries i bought him some too. THER'S NOTHING ( Read more... )

And the angel was surrounded by deciet, despair, and disgrace ( Read more... )

i awake to a quiet world full of silence. the tempests are still raging as far as i can tell. this is far from over, but at least for now, i can refocus myself in time to anticipate whats coming. the truth for once came out last night. and some more truth will come out now. i wish i had never met sudry. i wish she would just die or go away. the ( Read more... )

what a difference two days can make. who would lie about me to her? hmmm. if this persists, i may end up hurting someone. i am nobody to her all of a sudden. i wonder why that is? i asked and she told me that she heard that i was talking to someone else and apparently she's jealous. jealous of what? she is the one that wanted a single life. she ( Read more... )