new skool. hopefully new place, it seems everything is comin together for me as i have wanted it to for a while, im finally getting out of this hell everyone calls north miami and gettin back to where i belong and where i came from. i cant wait. whats more is there is more than jsut friends waiting for me there now. time to make that big step ( Read more... )

im tired of being me. tired of all the failure. it seems as though failure is all i seem to be good at. im tired of being too serious. im tired of all the shit that seems neccessary to life. tired of the incessant troubles that keep arising in new situations. tired of being cold, yet warm to only a few. tired of living my life the way it is. tired ( Read more... )

god fuckign dammit i hate this shit. i had this really really long entry almost done an the fucking internet fuck ass explorer had an errore and fucking closed on me. i was talking alot about who i am and shit and i found out my fuckign purpose for fucking living this fucking morning. goddamnit.anger 2.0? hah. ill fuckign show u fucking anger to ( Read more... )

well it all comes down to this doesnt it? a person whom you love so much an don't want to let go hurts u. is this not a truth in the universe? those whom you cherish the most and love so much, is always the person who can hurt you the most. after last night coming home from the fabulous party the previous journal entry happened. this morning we ( Read more... )

well now what an interesting title huh? i got home around 4 in the morning from port saint lucie helping mike's grandmother celebrate her birthday and i checked my mail. lo and behold there sat a most imperitive message for me. shannon had been on crutches this email was sent at 7:01 or something like that. she said that she had sprained her ankle ( Read more... )

if i had had my way all along, the world would probably be dead. in situations like the one i am in i just want to rip someone's fucking face off and shove it down thier dead grandmother's throat. i hope to god it would be a fucking 2 month old baby, the sex doesnt matter. times like these really help me get in touch with my anger. so unrelenting ( Read more... )

its amazing. failure can come so easy. success is so hard. shit. im fucking 20 already and still doing the same fucking shit i did when i was fucking 16. why does my life not like me? i feel likea failure. i know ppl r trying to help me. but y? y do they need to? i dont want them to. especially her. i feel ashamed when i am with her. i love her so ( Read more... )

well shit. im getting fucking old as shit. i can remember when i was a wee lad at the age of seven when i used ot dream about being sixteen so my mom could leave me at the house while she went out. when i was fourteen, i dreamed about being twenty one so i could buy my own alcohol. i am almost twenty and i dream i could be seven all over again. my ( Read more... )

all i can say is wow. i have never been happier with another female human being in my entire life. someone who is true and is there no matter what my situation may be. wow. dedication from you came alot easier than any other. this of course is not to say it was easy or anything of that particular nature, just my efforts seem to have not gone ( Read more... )

In order to fully comprehend a stiuation, one must detach its mind from all entities and see the situation from everyone and everything's eyes without attaching to someone or something." - Sun Tzu "The Art Of War ( Read more... )