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escheresque musical chairs
adderall last night. saya! it's like e but you're totally on top of everything. FOCUS is intoxication. counter cultural paradox.
a bloody synonym-race.
e sans the gritting and the dehydration.
e sans the i-must-touch-warm-skin-urge.
getting to the middle of the end of mr. y.
when you get to the end you're back in the middle.
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red bull in a baby bottle
three hours of sleep. an eager spirit keeps one going.
i close my eyes and i see a man with spectacles on the right with a beard mumbling. he is standing in 3d space of grass and shuttlecocks.
"to what do i owe this pleasure?", my mind says to this man.
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a giddy subway interstitial
first housewarming party was a success! 50+ people came, friends artists musicians...our backyard is a hit!:)
i maybe ridiculously broke but am having the time of my life. if this is the price i pay, i am tipping loads! overworked underpaid, two jobs within two jobs equals a hardcore workforce-permutation.
quantum salads and dimensional dressings.
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saw portishead the other day.
man.
i am still in love with this city.:) everyone is constantly complaining - just shut up already and count your fucking blessings.
they have NO idea how hard it is for non-american folk to come here. so fuck that, don't care if there are rats the size of cats or if this zipcode is a melting pot of consumerism.
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robots vs. humans
was great being a human for three months.
the feel of warm skin. kisses on your back. dancing to music in the kitchen. pinning you down until you surrender. falling asleep while you held hands. on conversations of dinosaurs and asteroids. SCRABBLE!!! american and filipino politics. feminism. the absurdity of religion.
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the sky seems to lean lower today. a little closer and you can participate in the precipitation. motherfucking water cycle. won't you please rain down on me and get it over with.
it's not everyday someone touches your life and actually changes you. these partners, no matter how intermittently ridiculous, stay with you forever.
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last Saturday, at brunch in the back garden of a new coffeeshop in Bushwick, a white dove came flying straight to my plate. defensively, Jason tried to shoo it away. it wouldn't budge. it stayed perched on my tote bag (in another chair). as we fed it breadcrumbs we realized it had a number on its right leg and a part of its neck was chomped off ( Read more... ) -
New routines
I got so used to sleeping alone.
I would :
wake up, remember where I am, confirm if this is the real world, look out the window to see the tree. Snooze.
And this went on and on for more than 5 years.
It was grand. I really enjoyed being by myself in a new country. I have started over. It is a success.
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come on irene
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I feel like LJ is vintage anonymity. It has watched me grow through the years. 8 years?
I love that everything "here" still feels intimate. I can say anything, for no one really knows who you are. Sometimes it's great to be floating in space and flashing lightning at fundamentalists anonymously.
Consequentialism. Or a lack thereof.
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