All i asked for was a simple resolution. One way or the other, so i could get it off my mind and move on. I thought could deal with it no matter what, so long as i knew where i stood.

The results? Inconclusive. Of course.

Yes, i'm in my bed in my room in Greensboro. It doesnt feel like i ever left. The last two weeks feel like a dream and here i am again, just like nothing's changed, except.. honestly, i feel better able to deal with things than i thought i would. A lot of stupid psychodrama from the summer seems far away, and even though there's a good chance it'll ( Read more... )

I'm still here. I'm still ok. I'm going home tomorrow, along with rachel, ben and thomas. And taking my car back with me, thank god. I'm dreading going home though. So much. I feel anxious and sick every time i think about it. But at least some things will get resolved, one way or another, and i think maybe when i get back i'll be more at peace. I ( Read more... )

Agh. This is the third time i've tried to do this and internet explorer keeps fucking up after i've been working on it for a half hour. Hence its not going to be as nice and long and insightful this time as it was the first two. Pretty much i'm having a really good time, and liking college a lot. Classes are good, roomie is cool, everything's fine ( Read more... )

Ok, so here i am. Sitting in my dorm room. My. Dorm room. Crazy. Beyond crazy. I think it hasnt caught up with me until now because i havent been alone until now. Not really alone for more than a half hour or so. I dont usually do real, detailed livejournal entries because i figure nobody cares, but now that we've all gone off in different ( Read more... )

Agh, i feel like i'm in middle school. This is pathetic. And the fucking phone isnt ringing. And to make it worse a conversation was had about cell phone ettiquete a couple days ago, cause we were talking about turning people down politely and old girlfriends and stuff, so i know exactly what expected standards are. You get two calls and a ( Read more... )

Last entry before i'll be writing from asheville. In just a minute i'm going to pack up my lovely laptop, dsl cables, connection wires of all kinds, and finally be able to walk across my floor without tripping over cords. For about 18 hours. Then i'll be gone. It didnt feel real until after my last day of work, and now its.. here. All the sudden ( Read more... )

So... apparantly i'm going to asheville tomorrow with some people, spending the night in the city, and driving  back down late friday. This was probably the shortest notice most random thing in the world. Pretty much, it was planned like, yesterday, when some people thought to themselves 'hm, we should go someplace.' I've intended for a while to go ( Read more... )

 Did anybody we know win stuff for being AP/IB whatever at the thing today? I wasnt able to go due to the endless nature of work.

I've decided that i'm happy about moving. I'm happy about starting over, and getting to be a new person. I had been feeling really conflicted about leaving, but some things happened here that made me realize.. i'm not happy with who i am. I'm not happy with what my life is. I guess something finally broke through to me morally (see riley's latest ( Read more... )