Comments | evalon: we talk just like lions, but we sacrifice like lambs

evalon

we talk just like lions, but we sacrifice like lambs

Feb 27, 2005 17:24

i met Evan and Yuffie down at Ralph's friday night to discuss tracking down Eva's father. Yuff and i were there for a bit before Evan showed up, and he told me that Mikka was going to be the other one going with us. he didn't really say much else, unless you count his cussing about what kind of a person Eva's father is and what he wanted to do to ( Read more... )

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the23rdevil February 28 2005, 01:06:58 UTC

*opens the door and looks slightly surprised to see Ev*

Hey Ev, whats up?

evalon February 28 2005, 01:10:07 UTC

hey Yuff.

*smiles*

nothing, i just thought maybe we could hang out?

the23rdevil February 28 2005, 01:16:23 UTC

Sure, come on in *opens the door* Benny is out with India I think. Trying not to think as to what their doing.

How are you?

evalon February 28 2005, 01:21:21 UTC

*walks in and sits on the sofa*

i'm sure India won't let her get into too much trouble. i'm good, a little tired from switching dimensions.

*grins at him*

but hey, we didn't have any side trips so it was all good.

how are you?

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the23rdevil February 28 2005, 02:48:34 UTC

Talk about what? The fact that I'm a killer even with a soul?

*shrugs* Yeah I admit its harder. But its nothing I can't handle. I'm still the same evil guy you know two years ago. I can do it.

evalon February 28 2005, 02:54:29 UTC

i know, a soul isn't going to change you into a white hat all of a sudden. as long as you're good with it, then i'll quit bugging you about it.

*smiles*

so how long is your sister staying?

the23rdevil February 28 2005, 03:03:30 UTC

Yeah okay *pauses a bit, biting his lip* I'm not sure, she is pretty vague about when she'll be leaving.

I dont' know, I guess its bothering me a bit. I mean I just can't stop thinking about it. I thought it would be just like before, but something's different.

But it needed to be done right? I mean if I didn't kill them Cristoff would of and he might of gotten himself killed or something.

evalon February 28 2005, 03:16:59 UTC

i guess it needed to be done, i wasn't there and i haven't seen Eva since she's been back.

*sits forward a little and looks at him, concerned*

you couldn't have just teleported Cristoff away? or did he tell you to do it? 'cause i'm sorry that Eva was hurt but you shouldn't have to feel like you had to kill them just to keep her boyfriend from doing it.

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the23rdevil March 1 2005, 03:59:37 UTC

*says softly* Thanks, but if you think I haven't fucked up anyone's lives, then you haven't heard from the same people I have. I've been hearing how I have most of my life.

I don't know, I think I would rather not let myself feel then feel all the hurt. I'm tired of being like an open wound all the time. At least when I was soulless it helped numb the pain of it all. *looks at her* Also? Getting out of here for awhile and to Europe? Not so much cowardly as a sane plan to me.

*shakes head* I want to be there, its the least I can do for Eva. But I don't want to be the one killing. Evan can do that, he's soulless and he's had a lot of practice. He'll handle it fine.

evalon March 1 2005, 04:14:14 UTC

well fuck them, making you feel like crap about yourself is the only way they can feel better about themselves. trust me on this, i have the same father Eva has for the most part.

*looks at him with haunted eyes*

no, Yuff, you really don't want to be numb. see, you start doing that? and you go along for years of your life thinking you're doing great, nothing bothers you, everything just rolls off your back. you don't deal with stuff like normal people do, small everyday stresses start to add up until one day you just snap. and then, you just start to crumble, all those defenses you built up fall away and suddenly you have to deal with everything you hid, everything you shoved aside to deal with later and...it sucks, Yuff. you find yourself struggling to even function let alone deal with all of the things you should've years ago. you don't want that, i don't want that for you.

*smiles a little*

if you want to be there, then i'll be there with you. we'll go have ice cream or something while Evan's taking care of it.

the23rdevil March 1 2005, 04:36:09 UTC

*shrugs* I've heard it from a lot of people, including my own dad as well. Afterawhile it starts to get to you. make you start to believe what they say is true.

oh. Well, I don't want to build up everything until it explodes. Its just, you know, I wish I could take more. I mean it really doesn't take much at all to set me off, or make me upset. Surely there has to be some sort of inbetween.

*nods* Okay, ice cream sounds good. I guess we can do that.

evalon March 1 2005, 04:51:48 UTC

i know, i get that. if everyone you're around is saying it, then it must be true, right? but Yuff, it's not how you are, don't let them make you into something you're not.

ok, as the queen of extreme moods? well, other than maybe Eva, 'cause she's like way more nuts than i am, but that's besides the point. i wish i could tell you how to find an inbetween, but the truth is i haven't found one myself.

i wish i had a fix for you, but i just don't, all i can do is offer to be here for you when you need to talk or get angry. i hate to see you like this.

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