leave it well enough alone and don't remember

[evalon]

oh god, i couldn't have made a bigger mess if i'd tried. and i did try, good christ i must've been completely out of my mind on tuesday. why oh why did Michael let me leave the house alone in a mood like that? but i know the answer; because it's what Michael does. he can read me like a book and he tries to respect me by giving me space when i need

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[isabella_hicks]

*walking back to the tables after talking to Ralph sitting down next to Ev, giving her a small smile*

Got it.

*sipping on drink, thinking*

[evalon]

*plays with the straw in her drink, scanning the room when Isabella sits back down*

hmm? oh, the spell? good, i'm happy Ralph came through for y'all.

*goes back to scanning the room, trying to be nonchalant*

[isabella_hicks]

*looking at her funny for a minute. but goes back to her own musings*

Yeah, he's a good guy. He's hurting like a bitch right now. Feel bad for him.

*looking over her shoulder at some guys hanging out where she was standing before*

[evalon]

*jerks when Isabella says that, spilling some of her drink*

he is?

*tries to cover by mumbling about all the ice the bartender put in it*

what happened? that he's hurt.

*looks curiously over to where she's looking*

and what's up with them? you thinking about getting up a pool game again?

[evalon]

*takes a step forward but stops, taking two steps back, looking away from him again*

i'm really sorry, Ralph. i wouldn't have spoken to you at all if i didn't think this was important.

*shakes her head no*

this is exactly what i got; "fucking Ralph, thinks he's so slick, i got his slick right here, wait til he goes down, i'm gonna own this place, gonna be rewarded for this bit i got to give to the boss, gotta get outta here first, why's Sammy lookin at me? jackass don't know shit, Frank neither, man that babe's got a nice rack, would fuck her five ways to sunday". i tuned out after that. i can try and get more it you'd like me to.

[goomba_ralph]

*jaw set*

Who's rack was he referrin to?

[evalon]

*raises an eyebrow at him*

he's betraying you and you want to know who's rack he was referring to? i don't know, i had to look right at him to get a connection and he was looking in my direction. it could've been mine or Isabella's, unless someone walked behind us and he was checking her rack out.

why?

[goomba_ralph]

*through gritted teeth*

Cause He ain't got the right.

*lookin at her*

I can't ask you to get involved.

[evalon]

*flinches like she's been slapped in the face*

no, that doesn't make me feel better. and you did NOT prove her right, you did nothing wrong! and i tempted you, lord knows i couldn't have made it easy on you, but you did the right thing and you said no. I made things more complicated and fucked up, not you. and god, Ralph, it wasn't just that, you weren't just a warm body that would do....you came after me, you stood there and took it when i wouldn't stop about Paige and you...you were there for me. i was a mess and you didn't run away from me and there was something

[goomba_ralph]

Ev, you were there and you were touching me and you needed me, needed somethin, needed to feel. You were hurtin and not yourself, if you woulda been in your right mind none of that woulda happened. Thats why I say no. Not cause I didn't want you, you know that I wanted you. I wasn't thinkin about Joey, even though I love her, or that I'd be tankin my relationship with her. I said no cause I knew, when you were back to bein yourself, you'd hate me, yourself and the whole damn mess. I knew that I'd loose someone who got it.

*shruggin helplessly*

Looks like I shouldn't have bothered. Not like me sayin no is stoppin you from feelin all the shit I was tryin to save you from. So if you wanna feel sorry? Feel sorry for that. That you're freezin me out, and for what? For shit that didn't even happen, that we didn't even do wrong.

You love Michael, I love Joey. You and me are friends. Thats how it is. Or at least thats how it could be.

[evalon]

*speaks very quietly, more to herself*

i would not have hated you.

*takes a minute to regain her composure and makes herself look at him.*

alright. you didn't answer my question before; would you like me to get your information, and if so, how shall i deliver it to you?

[goomba_ralph]

*full range of emotions flash through him, but he's not gonna fight her on it. looks around the store room for something to write on and with. Jots down cell*

Call this number. Anytime. I'm the only one who answers it.

*goes to say more but closes mouth. turns away, voice quiet*

Be careful, Evalon. And thanks. You got no idea what it means for you to do this for me.