What else should I be

[evalon]

i don't even know what to do here. by the time i got to the bar the attack had already started, and it was just a mess. Yuff was there, and he and Ralph were trying to think of how to get the people out when i came flying in. everything happened so fast after that; we managed to get the humans out, we were trying to work our way through Zane's men

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[goomba_ralph]

*cleanin some of the mess at the bar when Ev walks in*

Hey, baby.

[evalon]

*smiles some, walks over to kiss him before picking up a broom*

hey, babe. want me to start over there?

*motions towards the other end of the room*

[goomba_ralph]

If you could start over here?

*waits for her to come over by him, wraps his arms around her*

How are you doin?

[evalon]

*smiles at him and wraps her arms around him*

i'm good, how about you? other than the mess in here, i mean.

[evalon]

i wasn't implying that you couldn't....

*feels herself getting more frustrated, no longer sure why and decides to step back*

you're right. either way this was going to happen, and luckily things worked out so it wasn't worse.

[goomba_ralph]

*takes her hand and leads her to the bar sittin down with her*

I know you weren't tryin to imply anythin. But even durin the shoot out you took on these things that you should let me handle. It made me look weak in front of this other mob family and my own guys. I could give a flyin fuck about what anyone thinks of me. But I think thats how some of this started in the first place. How my guys were able to turn on me so easily. I can't let that happen again. It just leaves me open for more guys to come in and try. I can't be turnin around to mob wars every five seconds.

*lookin at her, knowin that this is all comin outta left field to her, he's just had a lot of time to think about shit*

You know I know you can take care of yourself, and me and you could probably take on the world if you wanted to. But I need to know that you're okay with lettin me handle shit I need to handle.

[evalon]

*stiffens, holding herself very still and keeping her voice quiet*

what exactly are you asking of me, Ralph?

[goomba_ralph]

*sighin, maybe he's askin too much*

I'm askin you to understand where I'm comin from here. Why it's important.

[evalon]

*smiles a little*

of course i understand, free and clear, remember?

*thinks about her convo with Penn before answering*

yeah, after they removed the bullet. he was in the hall when i came out. he was angry with me, yes, but i don't blame him. he wanted answers and he wanted to know why i didn't call them. and he's right, i should've called when i knew what was going to happen, or asked Yuff or Kat to call everyone that could help. it's what we do when there's trouble and i know that.

*sighs and brings a hand to her temple as if she can rub away the guilt*

but i didn't, i let the tunnel vision take over and i didn't. i apologozed and set him straight on a few things, and we talked after he got done yelling. i think he's...if not happy about it, at least understanding of it now.

[goomba_ralph]

*makin her look up at him*

Hey, you can't take the blame for this. At anytime I coulda told Eric and the rest of them to stay home until I figured this out. And if Penn wanted to yell at someone he shoulda came to me, not you.

[evalon]

*shrugs*

i think i was just the first one he came across, or he would've yelled at you. and i can, because he's right about me not calling. he was upset about Eric, upset that he thought i didn't trust him to be able to help, he had issues with me that were valid.

[goomba_ralph]

*a little upset*

No, they weren't. It wasn't your responsibility to call anyone. And I ain't sure that I like Penn yellin at you when he's actually pissed whith the shit I did.

[evalon]

*looks at him apologetically*

i'm sorry baby, i forget that just because when i look at you i see the other half of myself? it doesn't mean you know all of my secrets, even if it feels like you do.

this issue you're having, with me taking control in places where you need to be the one handling things, it's causing me to have issues. because i did the control thing, i have a tendency to do that when it comes to certain things. it's all wrapped up in that other issue you asked me if i was going to tell you about earlier, and some leftover issues with my father.

[goomba_ralph]

*narrowin his eyes thoughtfully, smilin a little*

Well then maybe this is the right time to talk about them. Only if you want to though. We could go up to my office. I'll fix you a drink and we'll talk?

[evalon]

i don't have a problem telling you anything, you broke down my walls a long time ago.

*smiles back at him and stands up, waiting for him*

as long as you don't expect me to lay on a couch and tell you things while you scribble on your notepad.

[goomba_ralph]

*talkin her hand and walks with her up to the office.*

Trust me, baby. You lay down on my couch I ain't gonna be thinkin about takin notes or much else of anythin.

*lettin her, leadin her to the set of chairs instead, then goin and fixin her a drink, sittin with her. Smirk playin on his lips.*

Tell me about your mother.

[evalon]

*nods

[goomba_ralph]

*listenin intently to all that, then she gets to part where her brothers and sisters are still messed up*

But you perfectly fine? He didn't trip you up at all, didn't hurt you?

[evalon]

i didn't say that. i'm not a freak about it like Eva is, though.

*gets up, continues to talk while she makes herself another drink*

i know i have some Julian tendencies, like the control one, occasionally. but i'm aware of them and i try to cut them off when i catch myself doing things in a way that reminds me of how he would do them. sometimes being able to be as cold as he was is useful, like when i had to dispose of him.

*turns and looks at him, taking a sip of her fresh drink*

then there's the times like last night, when the control issue is more about something other than my father and i don't know how to cut that off.

[goomba_ralph]

Again, I ain't sure I blame her, considerin what this guy did to you guys.

*lookin at hee*

I gotta assume that the other thing has somethin to do with that night. You lost someone?