I never had this feeling before...  My heart like just totally fell down to my feet...

Robot Chicken made me laugh tonight. I needed a fucking laugh.  "I am Orlando Bloom, but you can call me Orlando Bloomin Onion" and he took  off his hat and had a bloomin onion for hair...

I  couldn't be anymore heartbroken, disgusted, ashamed, tired, angry,fuck I could go on and on...  IN MY LIFE....

I  cannot wait for California... leave this state..start a new fucking life.  I hate EVERYONE here.  no  one FUCKING CARES.

someone that loves you would never think or would ever  want to do certian things that will remain

R.I.P.   vinnie vignola....

such a  good  person,  nice  gentleman.  too fucking young to die.

I dreamt of a fever, one that would cure me of this cold winter-set heart.
With heat to melt these frozen tears, burned with reasons as to carry on.
Into these twisted months I plunge without a light to follow,
but I swear that I would follow anything, just get me out of here.
But you get six months to adapt
And you get two more to leave town
And in the ( Read more... )

I don't think I can ever be content in my life. Everything is ALWAYS just so confusing. I am so confused right now. I've been like this since the day I was born. I never knew myself. I wish I could find myself. I feel as if I basically just exist.  My mind...  I don't even know.. .Anyone and anything could never do.

Lying in my bed again,
And I cry ( Read more... )

I fell in love with a bad bad man
Every since I met him
I've been sad sad sad
June faded in the bloom
The september moon waned and gloomed
Your perfume haunted me
Long after I saw
The swing
Of heaven's gate
Opening toward me

Luxurious in your arms
Your smile
Is a cool sun in the dark
Misery rejoices when you near
And fever,
No sound of sickness ( Read more... )

I pooped my pants the other night...

I was real drunk. I drank too much wine.. and I couldn't stop farting and one time it was poop. so i went to the bathroom to take my undies off and i wrapped it in toilet paper and threw it out in the trashcan and when i woke up the next morning (sober)..  i took notice that my friend didn't have any trashcans ( Read more... )

I am having fun lately. so cool. so cool.

but now I have something big to worry about, it sucks.

I am going to philly this weekend.  Katie is having a party. head automatica and the audition will be there. not my usual type of music, but shall be good times like always.