Mixed Emotions

[evenifitkillzme]

ARGH.  I"m not happy right now.

I"ve made it one week- if by making it I mean that I ate some chocolate earlier today. 3 mini chocolate santa claus', totalling 40 calories OUT OF ABSOLUTE LACK OF SELF CONTROL & STARVATION!

I was so angry with myself.  I wanted more and more after and just kept busy and ignored it, successfully, barely.

I am going to

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[heijihatsutori]

Oh. God.

I'm sorry I don't know what to say. The only thing I can do (I guess) is hoping that everything eventually will turn out ok for you.

I feel bad that I can be no help. I'm not good with diet and stuffs either. I'll try to search for some web page that might can help and tell you later. Is it ok?

Just try to hold on! Remember that there are people supporting you.

[evenifitkillzme]

There is one person (YOU) right now supporting me, talking to me. No one else.

Dont waste time researching- I have done that out the wazooo. Thank you though .

[heijihatsutori]

I realized it's been awhile since your last post and to think that I don't reply you sooner makes me feel twisted in the gut.

I don't know how you're doing now and I really hope that you're feeling better than before.

This is damn late, but you're welcome! I want to help, even with the smallest way possible.

Wishing you the very best!!!

[heijihatsutori]

I just go and google (it always manage to help me after all) and found these websites. I skim through them and I think the content is good. I'm really sorry this is the only thing I can do

[evenifitkillzme]

Hi hun.

no doctors. I"m done with them.

That isn't me above eating the cake, in case u didn't realize that. lol. Its just a picture of how I feel.

Did you know there are women out there who purposely gain weight and become fat becaues they are paid for it? because men love big blubbery women? I cant believe they would do that to themselves. And where are these men? I dont know any.

[heijihatsutori]

Took me a little too long to reply and damn I feel so bad about it I don't know what to write now...

Been busy with school (lame excuse I know but that's the truth, to my horror) and internet tends to play with me a lot...

You serious?! Are they going out of their mind or something? This is the first time knowing this and yeah...that's damn crazy...

I know it's not you...thanks for clarifying that one out though~

So how's you been doing?

[evenifitkillzme]

I"m doing okay. I've been a terrible blogger. I have been busy too!!!!!!!! So its not just you