8 mg xanax
four vodka crans
one free one
3.4 grams piff

i don't think mi i mind this lifestyle.l
except i'm poor
and i don't know how i will feel
when i cna't afford it anymore.

i hope it's not at that point.
what do you do?

two blunts
6000 mg vicodin
three vodka cranberries

happy birthday.

spring ended up being cruel after all. everything about it turned out to be wrong. i was wrong.
this is the way i'm going to die, never feeling anything else.
and how do i let this go? her. i'm waiting for things to change but in my heart, i know they never will - the way i want them to.

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i sat with my dog in a sun shower today. we have a white magnolia tree in our backyard. i never noticed it before ( Read more... )

"the essence of life is brilliant, dazzling. i cannot explain such miracles, yet i embody them daily. though i cannot remember my birth and shall forget my death, i live in the midst of wonder." - egyptian book of the dead ( Read more... )

i tripped so hard friday night and, even if just for a few hours, everything made sense.
i was infinite being.

i need some meaning in my life.

get rid of death. celebrate increase. make it be spring.
- m. atwood

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how do things so quickly fall apart?
it's hopeless.
i am.

school was a good distraction.

how have i accomplished so little in the two decades of my life?

that's all i think about
& how am i supposed to fix it
& what would it really change
if i could?