is this a sign that the timing is wrong?
or is it just something i have to be willing to work for?

i went to new orleans in november. i will live there one day.
last week marked the beginning of my first semester back in college.
i will be visiting home the 21-28.
i have 14 months sober.

i am doing well, but the people around me are dropping like flies.

isn't it a blessing that we all don't fall apart at the same time?

i'm your late night evening prostitute

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home sweet home.
i wish i never left.

i'm not even close to who i used to be.

i want out.

i love sleep
my life has a tendency
to fall apart when i'm awake.

- e. hemingway

i got pulled over on the pennsylvania turnpike
i had to eat a roach
thank god for grape flavored dutches.

everything that happens is from now on.
this is pouring rain.
this is paralyzed.

whatever could it be
that has brought me to this loss?

-bon iver.

i honestly cannot differentiate my days anymore from all the drugs and alcohol. i forget everything. it's the xanax which i don't even really like. pain killers are harder to find but they're my favorite. so i settle because even if i don't really like how those pills make me feel, they make me feel different than when i'm sober and that's all i ( Read more... )

my life is a mess
and i've made it this way.

this isn't how it was supposed to be.