If any one cares...

I heard Give It 2 Me on the radio yesterday! I was so excited! First I thought it was the CD so I was kinda like "meh". But then I realized it was the radio and I freaked! =)

so i've eaten 1900 cals and it's only :|.... but i am swimming for an hour and i ahve to basketball practice soooo that mayyyy bring me down 700 cals if i don't eat ANYTHING for the rest of the day...

yesterday(saturdays) are my fat day. On sat. i'm allowed to eat 2000  cals as long as I burn 600 cals (so i'll still be losing weight.). Now i'm back to restricting (i know i said i was fastingbut the 'rents made me eat something).   
-cheers xox

SHIT! i had a fuckin' breakfast sandwich from timmies this morning and half an ice cap. that's like 600+ cals in one shot!! I'm going for an hour swim in my fucking freezing cold pool for an hour. NEED TO BURN OFF ALL THOSE CALS! NO FOOD FOR 'TIL MONDAY! FATTY AIN'T HUNGRY!

           So, I guess i did okay, but i just had a slice of banana bread (TOTALLY FATTENING!!) and i had some pizzaaa which we had for dinnerrrr. But I didnt eat all of it which is good i guess. I'mgoing to purge once my parents leave to try and get most of it, then i'm going to swim for an hour (gonna burn that fuckin banana bread GAH, should ( Read more... )

I was eating okat today i guess. I'm BEYOND tired though. And i'm sick... oooooor it might be my allergies acting up. I don't know but all i know is that i feel like CRAP. Ew and we had grill-cheese sandwichs today. BLEH!. there was so much butter on the bread and soooo much cheese!! GAH! AND TO MAKE EVERYTHING WORSE  had some chips too :'(... But ( Read more... )

Yesterday I did okay, i guess. I'm guessing about 900 cals. But then I had my basketball which was 2 hours... So  i guess I burned alot. But then when i tried to sleep i couldn't i was up 'til 12-ish and woke-up at 3 and couldn't get back to bed... so i just lay there... doing nothing... until around 5 i got up and had a green tea. Bleh.. o and i ( Read more... )

Today's been okay. Summer school = blehh. But I've benn doing really well with my diet, but i got my period today so, I hope I don't binge like crazy. Me and my friend said that on august 4, we're going to go to the beach and we HAVE to wear bathing suits and i really want to lose alot of weight before we go. : )

Well today, I ate some cereal (300) (kinda binged on that :|) , sandwich with just meat (150), those numbers are okay since I'm like a hardore athlete and workout everyday :| ... but here's where i gets worse :       
- 6 cookies (480)
- meat stick (50)
- rice cake (60)

Holy fuck!!!      that's 1040!!!     My goal is 1000 and i'm already over it! ( Read more... )

FUCK! things are going from bad to worsee :( ... My grandma is in the hospital getting a peice of her lung removed and i found out my parents are taking antideppressents? wtf? Nothing really else to say... it's not that bad i guess if you think about it... it's just the fact that it's on top of all this SHIT! ... Bahh and i just keep gaining and ( Read more... )