Always one for introspection, I feel on the cusp of a new era and thus must write. I've found a job I love: doesn't necessarily pay a lot, but I'm totally happy there. To pursue nursing and art I'll have to give up hours at this job, and I am torn. And I don't want to live at my parents' forever, as in for another year. Ah! And being on-call  ( Read more... )

the wedding was absolutely gorgeous: bridesmaids in sleek ice blue gowns, groomsmen black suits blue shirts and white ties, pink calla lily boquets, blue and white tulle ribbons for decoration, and fancy standing silver candlabras with real, yes real, candles burning. oh, and the bride and groom! groom just as the groomsmen, but Linda's gown was ( Read more... )

Ok, so i haven't updated in way too long, if you hadn't noticed :P Summer's been up and down, lots of sickness here at home. i had a sinus infection, was treated for it; now it's back with a vengeance, having spread to my lungs and my forehead and throat, enlarging lymphnodes and causing headaches and all kinds of good stuff like that--just what ( Read more... )

Wow, how much can change in just 12 days' time. Spend a weekend with the guy and know you really love him then....and find out he fell in love too....changes the whole picture...now all i want is to be near him, see him, touch him. One person, you feel like you couldn't live without. And yet the differences weigh on you. Difference of belief about ( Read more... )

ok so i'm in an even worse mood this morning. i read over my diary and it's not very happifying. i've been struggling in this relationship with B for a long time now, and have felt i should end it that long too. it's so hard. oy, and Little House is about Adam trying to tell Mary that he loves her and wants her to marry him, hehe. Angie's getting ( Read more... )

what else is there to be frustrated about but guys...oy. two sleepless nights now. i knew i'd get myself into turmoil going with B, but i said who cares, i want some fun. it's so not worth the frustration Victoria! Lord knows i hope, and pray...i'm just bad at the waiting part, for that man He has for me. *sigh* so who knows what the future holds. ( Read more... )

Hmmm. I was in such a weird mood today. So full of anger and bitterness. I could barely stand to stay in church, I felt such a hypocrite and that I should leave. And it was a celebration day, the mortgage burning and potluck, and I had to smile and be nice. I felt so mean, and ugly.

That last entry was pretty venomous. I've got to watch it when I ( Read more... )

grrrr I think I should just swear off all guys. That way I'll be sure to avoid the ones who mercilessly manipulate innocent girls. Or I should at least wait. Or I should really learn how to spot these things myself, instead of taking everything they say as the truth. Joseph seemed so nice!! Oh well. He's out there somewhere yet. Thank You, Lord, ( Read more... )

So upsetting this all is :( Today the doc's called and said they're very alarmed at Josh's liver, and will try to get him in within a week to have a biopsy. One of the last resort procedures when they're already pretty sure it's cancer. Liver cancer. Fatal. He's only 14!!!! He's my bud. Oh how I'd miss him. :( Lord please don't let this happen! I'm ( Read more... )