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everything46

To The Annonymous Autographer Of My Previous Entry:

Jul 12, 2003 16:33

hey, whoever responded to my last entry, meaning any one of the 8 of you that knows this journal exists or one of the millions i don't know about, whoever it was tell me your name. i don't like annonymous messages, especially if you know me, as your response lends toward the affirmative. you sounded upset. if you want to talk about something i ( Read more... )

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anonymous July 17 2003, 21:53:54 UTC

i am sorry, but i do not feel comfortable in revealing my identity. i know that this journal exists and i check it from time to time, just to see how you are doing. as far as telling what is wrong, that I can do, but not in great detail. i will tell you that for the past 3 years, my life has seemed like a constant downward spiral. dont get me wrong, there have been good times, but they seem so short and fleeting that they are gone before i can grasp them for what they really are. i have made far too many mistakes and hurt far too many people to be forgiven, and i have to live with that. as of right now, i am suffering a lot of stress and turmoil with those that i care about and it seems that i have been here many times before. as much as want to, i cannot please everyone. i want to talk with you, but that is impossible, so i guess this journal is our only communication. i think about you often, as i see you in myself and somewhat in those around me. i miss you and do wish i could tell you who i am, but i cannot. please forgive me for ( ... )

hello everything46 August 1 2003, 23:03:17 UTC

difficult, tragic. oh well. have it your way. i empathise with your suffering, for what it is worth.

me again anonymous July 20 2003, 21:50:31 UTC

Poe ( ... )

everything46 August 1 2003, 23:08:26 UTC

i am sorry i haven't responded in awhile. i'm online maybe once a week if i'm lucky these days. work is hell, especially when you work for a place like 411. anyways, i can respect your privacy, but what ecactly is it that you were told about me? i'd like to know what you're talking about at the very least. would you please be so courteous as to tell me what that was about? i'm curious. anyways, chin up. grey is only a limbo. later.

anonymous July 25 2003, 21:59:38 UTC

i came across a picture of you today. i had forgotten how good looking you are. made me smile and made me regret. hope to hear from you soon.

huh? everything46 August 1 2003, 23:09:27 UTC

what picture? do you have a scanner? i want to see it.

Gray is only a limbo. anonymous August 1 2003, 23:17:59 UTC

so true, so true... i have been told that you are seen from time to time by my spies. and that you seem to be doing well. i imagine that 411 operators are very busy. perhaps i shall call 411 some day and hear you. that would be a blessing. that would be wonderful actually. where are you living now? that i do not know. curious, but i do not know. my spies do not seem to know either. hmmm... i hope that you will write again asap. it brightens these lonely days to see a message from you. i thank you for this. as far as my suffering goes, i cannot get along with anyone that is around me. not only am i emotionally unhealthy, i am also physically unhealthy. it is miserable, but its been this way for a long time. i hope you are healthy in all respects. thank you for taking time out of your busy schedule to listen to me. you are a good person.
yours truly, anon.

spies? everything46 August 3 2003, 14:30:38 UTC

you have spies? are they well paid? how's their health plan? dude, that's a little spooky. no harm no foul though. i still live with the same 2 roomates i've had for the last 2 years, actually. if you know me, then you know them. we're planning to move within the next 2 weeks, not far away, but we're not satisfied with the house we're in now. as far as my wellbeing, i suppose you could say i'm surviving. i'm not happy, no. but there's nothing in particular to be upset about right now either. i'm just doing what i have to do to keep myself around for tomorrow. my health could do to improve a bit. over the winter i gained around 50 pounds, all in fat. i've lost 30 of it, but i'm still not in as good a shape as i used to be. some of my teeth are broken, and i suffer occasionally from cellulitis (potentially threatenning to the brain). my bronchitis is getting worse, but i'm slowly qitting cigarettes, so hopefully my lungs can repair themselves. my eye sight is getting worse, but my hearing is sharpenning at seemingly ( ... )

Picture... anonymous August 1 2003, 23:20:04 UTC

no, i apologize... i do not have a scanner. do not be angry with me please.

??? everything46 August 3 2003, 14:31:58 UTC

i'm not mad. what does it look like? what's it a picture of?