i HATE the fact that i still sometimes think about ben 
i fucking hate it
i hope hes as miserable as i am

ben and i  havent been together for about a month
im trying to forget about him so i dont have to be in pain
but i cant everything is changing we dont even talk at all
i lost my best friend and boyfriend all in one day
this year is a bullshit waste of energy
i hate this year everything is fucking up
fuck

i basically havent been on my computer for more then a few minute in months. ive been so busy. haha. ME busy. well i guess it had to happen sometime. im sure i didnt to well this quarter. but i have been making that guap. i hope i meet new people and make plans im getting bored with waking up going to school coming home changing pants and going to ( Read more... )

i love you more then anything in the entire world <3

things have been rocky lately

insanely bushed right now :[

i went to Ortley, NJ fri-mon
it was alright
i havent seen ben in about a week
but i was blazed for mad days straight

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i have a sneaker print on my chin
and scratches and bruises on my arms

my mother told me to bring my towels downstairs so she could wash them
i told her i would do them and she argued that she wanted to do them
so i said no i would take care of it and she started to more angerly tell me to bring them downstairs
so i asked why and i guess thats not allowed
she started yelling and calling me stupid lazy arogant and ( Read more... )