You've cut yourself off ( Read more... )

(yeh i know the lyric is backwards, but it best suits me that way ( Read more... )

i hate this.

alone.
cold.
neglected.
disrespected.
tired.
abused.
misunderstood.
confused.

hating.
trying to love.
debating.

i have nowhere to go.

ahhh.. lately i have been doing things for myself. you know just simple things like taking a hot bubble bath and shaving my legs, eating asian food with a spoon, doing my nails, taking a break from everythingyeh i guess you could say that i miss having some people around, but it felt like they were around me for all the wrong reasons. im tired of ( Read more... )

i.dont.understand

so here i am. at last.

i dont really know how i feel. no one knows i have this journal, so i can actually post anything that i want, and i have nothing to say.

ironic.

i need to start my spanish project. dammit.

i hate school.

getting lost in this complicated world.

trying to find myself, trying to lose myself...

all at the same time.

and i think im going crazy.

just leave.

shes only friends with me because she feels obligated. like she tells me about so many other people. maybe i am just one of her pawns. i dont know. you can never really tell. shes such a good actress. shes perfected the illusion to where it becomes your reality ( Read more... )

dreams last for so long
even after your gone