Once again it's late and I'm up, chewing over the past like a starving man who's thrown the same meal up several times over but won't stop eating it.

Loz, Annie, Cat, Puma, Boccollo, Lorelei. It's all still here. Fuck me. I wonder if I actually do miss that life.... huh.

Go to bed Adam. Read coping theory another day.

Bring this back to life another ( Read more... )

One song. That's all you get. Hit play and start typing...... So here goes.....

I love Lj. A place where all of the worst things that are in you heart/soul/body are vented and people eviscerate themselves on the page.

Beyond blue should troll for clients here.

I must say that my heart is in hiding. Generous, patient, understanding...... Ideals I ( Read more... )

Still alive and getting stronger every day. I just can't seem to be consumed by this world. Images of time passing fill my mind and I smile at opportunity.

I thought of one of them today. I think of her now.

Remember a dream can only last so long and should never become a sorrow. Use it. Fight the things that make make us cry. I have assimilated ( Read more... )

What can I say? Ouch? Does not seem to cover what I feel at the moment. This post is an epitaph of sorts. My LJ was resurrected for the sole purpose of informing a certain person of my actions in there absence, but in that regard it is no longer needed. So after a brief comeback tour this insidious form of media well be returned to the past where I ( Read more... )

I'm tired kids. I think the general haze that has existed in my mind for so long has affected my ability to be a successful and competent member of society.

I don't think I have ever tried to do something so hard as what I am attempting now. It is causing me a shit load of grief and yet I'm loving every minute of it. I just need everything to work ( Read more... )

Well I'm back LJ. Its been quite some time no? Typing on this blank page feels somewhat alien considering the last time I posted here marked the end of quite an emotional saga in the life of Adam. Well lets bring everything up to date in a rather hurried and brushed over version.

I turned 22. Yay in an old fart kind of way.

Began seeing a nice ( Read more... )

SELF AGAINST CITY LYRICS

"Yours Isn't The First"

Wait till you fall asleep
And I'll push the car down the driveway
Turn the engine over
And I head straight for the highway
You're not the only one who can fake love
But I did what I had to when no one can blame me for that

Yours isn't the first heartache in the world
Your wounds will mend
You'll be whole once ( Read more... )

BALL A RAT!!!!!!!!!! BALL A RAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! BALL A RAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Quality..............

Paranoia..... Now when it comes to this most bastard of all feelings I must say I'm very well acquainted with it. It runs down my spine like clawed fingers........... Nobody likes to feel like the people they trust and the places the go are sources of possible betrayal or weakness but a sick form of self-schadenfraude exists and you can't help but ( Read more... )

It only took one more betrayal. Now I'm free. I have nothing to worry about anymore. Nothing to punish myself about........ I can breathe even though it hurts like hell. Its over. It's done with and best of all it wasn't me that fucked up this time............... So free.............

30 SECONDS TO MARS LYRICS - "The Kill"

What if I wanted to break
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