I was totally ready to cry at work today. I was so frustrated I didn't know how to handle it. UGH.

The holidays need to get over with so I can study and be stressed about my own life and keeping my job and not about everyone's lives around me.

he's going to try for custody....

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So Richard and I are doing good. Still spending a lot of time together, and I am sad when he has to go home every night. Kassaundra adores him, and it is almost like he has taken the place of Kirk in her life. She behaves the same way with Richard the way she acted with Kirk. Kirk still hasn't called once except for that night of prank calls. Jaron ( Read more... )

Life has been awesome the last few weeks. I met a guy at church and things have been going awesome. I was doing incredible living after Kirk. I haven't even cried about everything that happened with us. I guess my mind doesn't think he is worth the effort to make tears. Richard just makes the world feel right. It is so odd how even after everything ( Read more... )

i keep wanting to post and then i just get depressed. there is a ton going on and being back in my parents house doesn't help. I can't do things that i want to do and things that i don't really want to do but do anyway like staying up all night because of my insomnia ( Read more... )

i am numb. i haven't been able to feel any emotion at all the past couple of days. i can't get him out of my head though.

i'm thinking that he is avoiding me because he knows what he gave up. He knows he is in the wrong, and if i am around then he feels guilty about it. makes sense in my head, i don't know that it makes sense here ( Read more... )

I'm just about at my wits end with Kirk...

My Tarot Card for Today

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So i have worked a whopping 3 hours so far this week and i was scheduled to work 15. I should have been scheduled 40. I'm sceduled for 3 hours today, but who knows how that is going to work out because i have been sent home early everyday so far. But work sucks and people don't know how to make a schedule. Good thing today is my last day. WOO HOO. ( Read more... )

I drove by Michelle's house on my way somewhere to see if Kirk was outside so I could talk to him, and he was out there. It was just one of those things where I had a hunch I should drive by. Good thing I have been listening to my gut lately. I didn't get to talk to him for long, but he didn't want to talk and that was apparent. He looked different ( Read more... )