god. i'm dead. everything hurts,screams in pain. it's because my brain isn't receiving the right amount of dopamine. i'm depressed. i had another panic attack on sunday. keenan calmed me down. we talked about him going on the roadtrip with spenser and kellen. i cried, a lot. i still feel like crying, but after five minutes of sobbing i know i'll ( Read more... )

YAY!!!!! keenan's back!!!

My babies!



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i cant belive that man. he's such an asshole sometimes. he found out yesterday that a friend of his is dying of cancer in anchorage and he made flight reservations to go. that's all fine and dandy, but it means mom has more to take care of. now he only has one leg and he usually goes around in a wheelchair, but apparently today it was different. ( Read more... )

well, i'm 17 now, whoopie... just spent the last 4 day s camping with my best friend. they were great. the funny thing is on my birthday,i didn't even remember. we had a lot of fun. but now i have that missing feeling inside of me. i think it has to do with something i don't have now. perhaps i'll never have it. i don't even know what i'm missing ( Read more... )

well, to start out, my tongue is burned, by REALLY hot pink lemonade, which is surprisingly good and delicious. and amrit and i spent the night together, went on a walk for who knows how long, except that we were back by about a little bit after midnight. then i burned my tongue, and then stayed up talking till one in the morning. and so i got less ( Read more... )

soooo, i just spent the night at luke's house and it was pretty fun, the only not fun part being now at maybe 4:30 in the afternoon and they still aren't awake. whereas i have been awake, well woke up and hung out by myself and then went back to sleep and have been just lounging around. yyyyyyyyyyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaayyyyyyyyy!!!!!!!!!!!!! they woke ( Read more... )

yayyy, complete turn around of my mood. i don't even know if i can write all that's happened. first of all my bestest friend in the whole world called over to see if i wanted to spend the night and i did and we had a blast and didn't even have to be quiet and stayed up late and curled eachother's hair and watched 'i love lucy' and then 'josh groban ( Read more... )

i'm kinda sad today, not sure really why, except that it feels like i don't have much going for me. my best friend is homeschooling and dating someone whose guts i don't quite fancy, my other best friend and i are drifting apart, the people who i'm becoming closer to never have any money and i'm now running low because i always pay for their stuff ( Read more... )

yup, so i got gabe's pics yesterday and they were quite nifty. and i finished my bracelet for jewlery class and am a little proud of it. i even found the perfect bead for it. oh, i had and idea of making a website for my dog cuz i love him sooooooo much i think it'll be cute. the guy next to me is being nosy and keeps looking at what i'm typing, ( Read more... )