hmm i just dont know. maybe...but maybe not...

alright so my school has decided that my live journal because of its "vulgarity" and my "unappropriate" postings. this is complete crap in my opinion.. but when has my opinion EVER mattered at this school? I mean honestly i do not feel like i am doing anything wrong here. I am not posting naked pictures of my self... i am not talking about ( Read more... )

So things are going pretty great here. I am feeling sooo much better i think i was just having a laura is going to kill everyone PMS for a couple of days. =) The sun is shinning outside and i am actually looking forward to going to soccer practice.. I think i talked Lake into letting me play Full back instead of Mid. That would be amazing.. ( Read more... )

Well brian broke up with me this morning... he said he couldnt handle my mood swings. but then we got back together this after noon... i have decided that i need to pull myself together and get over my life. i mean it isnt that bad and i need to just suck it up and get the fuck over it. i guess i am not allowed to be upset about anything ( Read more... )

i hate being so confused... i dont know what i want in life right now i dont know if i am going down the right path. What if this is all wrong? but then again what if it isnt... i can feel myself getting restless and that is such a bad thing... this has all happened before... the fucking cycle continues... i thought this was it...

Love can be a many splendored thing ( Read more... )

I'm falling down
But I should find my strength in this
A light that burns to reconnect
My heart for what it's meant to give

I stand alone
I'm on my own
My hands will bleed
I'm holding on to what is gone
What's left of me?

so i have decided that i hate life. i cant make myself be happy with anything i have... it all needs to end now.

For the past few days i have felt so empty inside. I dont know what it is. I have been doing so well this year i have been so happy but now its just all crashing down on me. My body has been so tired i feel like everything is just shutting down. I dont know how much longer i am going to last with out breaking and i havnt broken in a long time.. ( Read more... )

hey so it looks like Brian is all i have left at home. Ashley has turned into a huge cunt and its really sad. I have realized that i am not best friends with anyone at home anymore. They have eachother and their new friends and i have my friends in virginia that i wont see ever again after i graduate and so all i have at home is Brian... why did ( Read more... )