so i am in italy and it is amazing and i love you all very much and i will tell you all about it when i get home! It is so beautiful here it takes my breath away. I want Brian and i to come back here together i think it would be so amazing. I miss him so unbelieveably much i almost cried last night. I really need to hear his vioce but i just ( Read more... )

Brian darling i love you so much. These past couple of days i have just been so in love with you not that i am not in love with you all the time but i am just SSOOO in love with you now. I am so excited about the summer we are going to do so many amazing things together! Our one year is ssoo close its wonderful. I cant wait to come home to you ( Read more... )

You were once my one companion ( Read more... )

So the cast list for the spring musical Fiddler on the Roof came out today and i have one of the lead roles! I get to play the daughter that is supposed to marry the butcher but doesnt... I AM SO EXCITED ( Read more... )

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So i cried myself to sleep last night it was pretty bad. My body totally shut down its like i had to make myself breath. i wanted to call brian but he was hanging out with alex and they were drinking so i probably wouldnt have gotten a lot out of him. I was so upset that i got Valentina out of the box...and i cuddled her all night. It helped ( Read more... )

So i had a revelation today... forget all of you guys back home.

Ok so i totally think that God came and talked to me in a dream last night i really dont have the time to be writing it all down right now but yea it happened. He basically told me that i was going down the wrong path in life and that i needed to turn around and go the opposite direction. Then i dreamed again that i went to Zimbabwe and tought ( Read more... )

why doesnt anyone ever call me? its like everyone expects me to get intouch with them but i mean the phone works both ways... The only person who ever even seems to care enough to call me is Brian and sometimes teena and armistead. My own family doesnt call me. I dont even remember my friends calling me on my 18th birthday. I guess everyone is ( Read more... )