its been a long time....

[eviltreegrl]

omg.. i feel terrible.. bad ending to a bad week.. i am a whore... thats all i'll ever be to anyone.. i mean.. all guys want is sex.. at least the guy i want.. and all i want is to be with him.. it killing me.. slowly... i am thinking about leaving.. just up and running away.. i'll die soon tho b/c i have no food...i dunno.. i want to die.. i am

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[revil_001]

You are not a whore and you know it. and thats not all guys want. and the you want (meaning me, if I'm correct) thats not what I want. If you remember I wasn't the going for it right away. I just wanted to be there for you because you asked me to be, and I wanted to be, for you. and knowing that you want to be with him doesn't change the fact that you might be, I mean I did say you'll have to see. I'm not one of those friends to come up to you and say can we talk I have a problem and I need to talk about it. I mean I keep it inside and it builds up and I just get more anger. You know how I am, but at least I don't hit you ( females )If you want to leave I can't stop you but, if you do choose to leave don't do anything stupid, Think about what your doing and what your going to do when you get where you want to be. and you better start eating I mean there is no reason to stop eating. if you don't have food get some food. I know you have the money to get food, so do it. and you have lots of people that care about you to much for you to

[eviltreegrl]

i know yo care.. but who else really does? i mean matts all pissed at me.. and they only friend i have lives in LG and i dunno.. and i am so depressed.. i was just doing so well... and now.. i just feel useless.. and i mite not be a whore but i mite as well be.. sex is all i am good for since no body seems to want to date me... i mite as well give up.. i just want to be in a loving relasonship again.. and i miss it.. everything.. having someone there.. not always having to be alone.. this really sucks and after today i think i give up...

[revil_001]

Don't you dare give up. whatever happen today is just another bullshit thing that happens a long the road of life trust me I'm going trouhg it now too but I'm sticking through it because I know it would kill people if i killed myself and you being one of them. so I choose to live for the ones that I know still care and I live life even thou i still hate every second of it, i still go on. so you should do the same for me as i do for you. keep living. and not for bullshit like sex either, you understand what i'm saying?

[eviltreegrl]

by give up i don't mean kill myself.. i mean.. i want to be in a relasonship again.. i miss it.. having someone to fall asleep with... give massages to/.. i relised yesterday how much i miss it.. and i really like this guy.. and i dunno if he likes me... but i basically give up.. b/c in the end i'll get hurt.. i always do i am not worth being all in love with.. guys just apparently want sex from me.. so maybe its what i should settle for...

[eviltreegrl]

my hope is long gone... i mite as well start sleeping around... its all i'm good for...

[sleep_flower_]

880-7608. Text me when you get a chance if you want. Or call, but I'm at work all the time now, so texting me might be easier. If you want. *shrugs*

[eviltreegrl]

ok! will do!