oh how i can't believe erik and krys broke up.. and god i have got to check this more often.. god i miss her.. she always kept my head on straight.. always knew i was too good for dan.. anf always told me. .. oh how it mite be great to live with her if i can afford it in a few months.. yay!

I gave up ms for a while.. just so ppl know.. this journaal is going to to be friends only,,,

i figure since i haven't wrote in here in a while and no one reads it when i do i'd write in here and confrim that ppl are right. i'm so stupid. i sleep with so why would he want to date me... when hes got the one thing i am good for... i'm not pretty enough to date..                                             
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ok so my family didn't stay the fuck out of my life and they made my life worse then in was.... you got the cell... call i am out walking adn crying and being pissed... i got about an hour of sleep.. and i am hungover.. fuck taking a walk on the wild side... i'm taking a walk on the train tracks...

**Stab my back, It's better when I bleed for you

I need a job.. and i am becomign more depressed by the second.. i did take up smoking today... ha...

I am so bored.. but i gues having your friends disown you b/c you fucked up is something that would make anyone bored...

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ok so today i went on a ride with my motorcycle club.. it was tons of fun.. i made a friends named Crystal who knows everybody i know.. and is apparently weasel and shadow cousin.. lol she cool we talked alot... and i got to ride on the back of this guys eric's bike on the to Ill and i rode in a van on the way back... on the way there.. we got a ( Read more... )

I keep find more bruises.. ones that he left on me... and thats not the worst... its that,, in that moment i think he could have killed me... i still love him... he held me down and yelled at me.. made me realize everything is my fault... and he could have hit and beat and i would have layed and taken it like i did when chris beat me... b/c i ( Read more... )