Really I just want this year to end. And yet even though the days pass, it some how just gets worse. Its like this year is just trying to see how many fucked up things it can dish out before it ends. My best friend just lost her dog, in what had to be one of the most fucked up ways ever. I miss her so much. I went over the day she found her, so I ( Read more... )

Well I'm not really sure how to put this down. I don't even really know how I am staying around right now. There are certain things that I have wanted almost all my life and I didn’t really see any reason why I shouldn’t have them. I try my hardest to be a good person. I know I’m not always around for people when they want me to be, but I think I ( Read more... )

OK well I'm in a rather bad mood. Today was my day in court, and I really thought it was going to go my way. Well it didn't! I just don't get it. Alicia wants to stay with me, she thinks of ME as her mother, and I think of her as mine also, well she is! And all her stupid crack whore mother keeps doing is standing in our way of making it official. ( Read more... )

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I am not too sure if I am just super bored or what. But I have just been home, mostly alone, and thinking, which I try very hard not to do. I think I am going crazy. I need to get out. I think that I should be happy cause of how everything is going with Alicia's adoption, but I'm not really. Well I mean I am happy about that, but sometimes I think ( Read more... )

Hahaha... Well this is the real first mommies day that I can take part in. I got flowers from my little one. Of course when she gave them to me she gave me a big hug and said, "Happy valentines day mommy!" I just laughed and told her its not valentines day, its mothers day. She can be very cute sometimes. It was her birthday on Thursday. We had a ( Read more... )

well the count down has begun to my moms surprise b-day party. This is a first for me. And it is a big deal for my mom, well as far as for the birthday, it is her 65th b-day. That's a big one. It makes me feel a little weird for me to think that she is already 65. I want every thing to go so smooth for that day. I have till the 28th of May. Her ( Read more... )

Well its almost been a week since I fell on my ass. I had to go back to the Dr. today cause I can't fell my toes. I'm ok but she messed with my foot so much that she made my foot all swollen again, and just when it had started to go down a little. I hate this, I can't walk or leave my house for very long. I just have to stay home, and I even had to ( Read more... )

OK well I tried to go out and cheer on my friends band, I think I should have stayed home instead. My lil girl really wanted to go out and see them play and that's was a main reason for going. We were at the Whiskey on Sunset and we were having an o time. We missed most of there 6 song set but oh well. Well, we were getting ready to leave and we ( Read more... )

OK so I got some really good news the other day. My friend who was going to Iraq next year, is not going over after all. Ha ha, screw you Bush that's one your not taking away to fight you stupid grudge for you. Meanwhile, I am so happy that he is coming home, he's been gone for a little over 3 months, and I really missed him. We talked all the time ( Read more... )