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it's you that i hold on to.
Your voice wraps around me like a cocoon of remembrance. The electric pulse coursing through my veins hums with newfound contentment. Months of disconnect fade into oblivion as the procedural memory of my words sliding against yours takes over. Words flood the air with forgotten ease, alone but for the comforting crackle of static. But I will not ( Read more... ) -
we couldn't win in the end.
I am afraid, now more than ever, that I will not get out of here ( Read more... ) -
i can't escape eternal emptiness.
I miss the feel of warm, calloused fingers entwined with mine. The pressure of those fingers tracing my hipbones, venturing into the nerve that makes me writhe with uncontrollable laughter ( Read more... ) -
i've fallen by the wayside now.
Rarely did I dream of you when you were still within my grasp. Now that you've fallen through it, your ghosts haunt me nightly. I wake up with the crushing joy of belonging, only to remember. What's funny is that these subconscious fantasies of mine aren't even tales of reunited love, but just of being. We never even kiss, but we're together ( Read more... ) -
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the waterline is rising.
Whenever I try to advise someone of what to do, I attempt to make myself completely objective. I don't factor my own emotions into the equations of the people who actually give a shit about me. I tell them that they should, give or take, do what they truly want, but fuck me.
Standing in my shower, the heat gone from the water bleeding into me, I ( Read more... ) -
it all revolves around you.
I am losing myself inside of you.
I'm not sure I know how to retrieve it.
But I'm willing to risk it all anyway.
Nothing else may ever be as worth it.
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shortness of breath
Hopeless.
Like I'd forsaken everything else. Nothing worth it.
Like there was no going back anymore. Nothing left.
Like that was all I ever needed, forever. Nothing else.
Like I couldn't survive without it. Nothing to live for.
I am nothing.
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the freeze frames keep him warm.
In the moment.
I used to not understand that term. I always thought of it as some lame excuse for irrational actions, claiming that you were too overcome by everything to think clearly and anticipate consequences.
A lot has changed.
Now I see it as being so overcome by everything that you're incapable of absorbing it. When something truly, deeply ( Read more... )