Things have definately been up and down lately. It seems like whenever one thing good happens ten bad things follow. Ive been struggling alot. My emotions are all over the place. I had a pretty good weekend. Of course, it was a holiday so I had to piss Dad off as usual and got kicked out, but as you can see Im still here typing... Mom stood up for ( Read more... )

Because without good friends a person is nothing. I feel so loved. When the goin gets tough, the tough fall on the shoulder of a good friend. :-) I'm a big girl, thank God I have ALOT of really good friends to lean on! lol... I hope I stay friends with these people forever. I have gone through alot of crap lately and I would not have made it ( Read more... )

I was doing fine until last night. I couldnt look at him. It hurt. I miss him. He was right there and there wasnt anything I could do about it. I want to be friends so bad, and from what Ive been told, he thinks Im trying to turn his friends against him. I could never do that. Idk. Maybe I really should disappear for awhile. Everyone would be ( Read more... )

My mind is goin 100mph. I over-analyze way too much. I need to just let things flow. No more "what if's". New goal: to try and relax...

I have realized that I deserve better than what I have been allowing myself. I deserve someone that will appreciate me the way I appreciate them. I deserve someone that is so incredably sweet that I dont know how to react. I am happy that Allen left me. I wasnt. I was crushed, but I sat and thought about it and realized that we really didnt have ( Read more... )

So, it seems as if when you do something good it comes back to bite you in the ass. Meaning: I did everything I could to cater to him, whatever he wanted, whenever he wanted it, and yet I still get dumped. Not only did I get dumped, but he didn't have the balls to say it. He just slammed the door in my face and has yet to speak to me. I guess it's ( Read more... )

So yesterday I was informed I have one month to get out. Thats not so bad I guess. At least I have warning this time. Allen and I have been looking for places for a little while now. Things are not really going as well as we would like. I called the realtor today and she said she has some places in mind. One is in the same neighborhood my parents ( Read more... )

Lips Of An Angel ( Read more... )

So, today was my first day at the jail... Im not sure if Im gonna like this or not, but for the money I will deal with it. I felt like I got nothing acomplished today, but I guess since it was the first day its ok. Im not used to not seeing the light of day so thats gonna take some getting used to. There are no windows at all :-(. Kinda sux, but ( Read more... )

I GOT THE JOB! I GOT THE JOB! I GOT THE JOB! YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!