My mom’s lesson:

We all have choices.  We can decide which roles to play, and whether or not to prevent or stay away from different situations.  We control the way we react.  We can choose to walk away from pain or even happiness.  We can grow from mistakes or continue living in the past.  We all have choices.

My sister’s lesson:

Live in the moment. ( Read more... )

i just read over past entries...
& saw where i quoted my grandma... quoted the things she said during her newspaper interview after my grandfather's death.

i wonder what my popo would have said about my grandma.. if she would have left us first.
they were so in love. & i'm so happy to know that they're together again.

i want to visit them this weekend ( Read more... )

i am chasing the wrong dream ( Read more... )

maybe we're better off this way...

i'm tired. so tired.
you can't go back in time. you had your chance to be mad, but you chose to act like things were cool & that everything was okay... when in reality, our world was turned upside down. now, 2 months later, you decide to get upset. wtf. that makes no sense.

okay. i get it. i messed up. people screw ( Read more... )

i keep having dreams that my apartment is going to be trashed when i come back in august. i would just die if that really did happen.

i'm so bored. i wish i had my carrrrrr.

so i got a 4.0 this semester. first time ever for me, & first kid out of my siblings (including step). i printed out my grades & put it on the fridge. it feels amazing to get all ( Read more... )

words FOR THE wise.....

from personal experience i've realized...
age does NOT meausre and/or relate to maturity level.

end of story.
why am i so nice? no point.
i have about 4 amazing friends... & that's all i need to survive in life anyways.
whyyyyyyyyyy try to keep friendships alive when they're not even worth it? i don't know. maybe because i'm nice ( Read more... )

so i was looking at old pictures from highschool. i'm supposed to make a powerpoint on "who i am" - whatever that means. anyways, i came across pictures from my senior year. god i was so skinny - it was sickening. i mean, i knew i was skinny back then, but i didn't understand how badddddd it was!

& then i start thinking . my nickname in highschool ( Read more... )

spring break was probably a 5 out of 10.

oh well you live & you learn.
damn . i had a lot of life lessons thrown upon me this week .. & i am SO not ready for school.

let's see. the last time i wrote in this, i had just found out about my grandfather slipping into a coma. he passed away on christmas eve.. & my family & i had to say goodbye during the happiest time of the year. it was pretty hard. & it still is. some nights i call marcos crying... i'm always apologizing because i feel like i should be over this ( Read more... )

he is supposed to be invincible.
at least that's how he is in my eyes.

lets just hope he proves me to be right within the next couple of days.