at four-thirty this morning, one of the most important people in my life took her last breath.

my grandmother. though this was somewhat expected and we all knew she wasnt getting any better, i wasnt ready for it. i just didnt think it would happen right now. my heart did not fail to sink when i got the call this morning ( Read more... )

is still on my mind a lot ( Read more... )

grandmother: shit.
mother: what did you say?
grandmother: i dont know, it just slipped out.

my grandmother is still hardcore, even in a hospital bed.

she is being put in hospice tomorrow...

he speaks of hope to
my rising structure
and bends life into dream
breathing feeling into desire
all through a blissful sunrise
leaving me much more to remember
this moment by
more than a touch
an image so beautiful
carved into time.

"baby, i dont care if i die tonight."the engine hums and drones as we invade the lanes of this city. lights of signs and the haze of buildings pass through the corner of my eyes. [your] beauty fades in and out all around me, my darling distraction. fear may be seeming in me, but its not the quickness of this nighttime ride thats got me. the ( Read more... )

and it hits you like
a bul.let
tearing through layers upon layers of
skin, flesh, memories,
making a home inside my heart.
each day,
each hour,
each moment
it becomes progressively rusted.
blood-covered.
my blood is thicker.

i normally do not like talking political on here, but at this point, i really dont give a fuck about what anyone else thinks ( Read more... )

"i am an excitable person who only understands life lyrically, musically, in whom feelings are much stronger as reason. i am so thirsty for the marvelous that only the marvelous has power over me. anything i can not transform into something marvelous, i let go. reality doesnt impress me. i only believe in intoxication, in ecstasy, and when ordinary ( Read more... )