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[exile7]

Ick. I feel... Dazy... Not good like. I keep blanking out, but instead of it just being a blank blank, it is a sad blank. I just... feel down. I feel disconnected. I feel lost. I feel like I belong on the floor right now. I don't know why. But I feel kind of crappy. And I am trying to fix this, but the blank feeling keeps taking me over. Like I can

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[deathsgift]

OMG!!! You wanna know sumthing really weird! I know exactly how you felt today... I mean itz crazy how much I felt the same... you know the feeling u explained... you know things are happening... well Keith is at the camp and I almost went, but I got into a fight with my mom... actually one of the worse ever!.... but I'm ok... I have theze kinda days a lot... i used to let it take full advantage but not n e more... I shrug it off.... itz the only way I live now... shrug it off... peace out!

[exile7]

That is interesting. I hope the good pick up reached you on your end as well then. What did you and your mother fight about?

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[deathsgift]

Well.. she was drunk like usual.... and she wanted me to take the kids for a walk and I really didn't want to... so I told her that she should do it if she wants them to go for a walk... and then she threatened to hit me and I told her to... and then her boyfriend came over and asked whut was going on... I thought he was gonna yell at me to, but then he took my side... my mom got really pissed off about that one... then she wouldnt let me go hang out with my friends "cuz i blew it" I ignored her... and eventually she feel asleep and i don't think she rememebers it... she's such a bitch... i sometimes really hope she dies... in a car accident so then I can yell her in death about how she crashed the car! and how it was all we had... a little taste of her own medicine... sorry for ranting.... haha peace

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[exile7]

No need to apologize. Never need to apologize to me for talking to me. I enjoy to read the things you have to type for me to read. Well, I enjoy the fact that you have something for me to read, but something like that is a sad concept. Your mother sounds as though she shouldn't have control over you. What gives her the power she has over you? What binds you to her? Why take the restrictions she gives you if she can't even remotely respect you? What do you have to gain by listening to her if she is going to be that way? If you wish sometimes that she was dead, then you should be able to do as you please not as she makes you please. Although I believe you should perhapse not wish she were dead. Instead, let her live her life as she is going to, even if she is going to waste it. But you shouldn't let her try to live your life for you. I mean, it is good to do good things, even for people you may not like, but that is because "you reep what you sow." You only have this one life to live, don't let other people live it for you, or tell you