I need a vacation. God I wish I could just leave for a week. No phone. No Internet. Just friends.All of this stress is eating me alive. and most of it is from other people. I cant remember the last time I didn’t go to bed crying. I have never been this emotionally upset. I am even to the point where I am considering shutting off my phone for a ( Read more... )

Rejected. Its how I feel. He says. Its not how I want to make you feel. I want to be with you. Just not the issues. but the issues will be there regardless if we are “in a relationship” or not. He wants to do this without us being together. Because its what he needs to do. But how can he expect me to act like we are ok when we aren’t. Trust me. All ( Read more... )

Its day 3 and I feel like my insides are crumbling. I dreamt about him last night. Dreamt he told me he would never be with me again and that even though I begged and pleaded he wouldn’t be with me and he left me, in a pool of tears on the sidewalk. This is what I fear will happen. I know, he wants space and time but I remember when he told me I ( Read more... )

I need to vent. This weekend is going to be the longest of my life. Not only are my dreams not an escape but I cant sleep. I wake up on the other side of the bed. I start out on my side and now two days I have found myself on his side of the bed. It makes my heart ache. I just wish He would randomly show up in the middle of the night and slip his ( Read more... )

So, let see. It’s now currently 4 am. This is my 5th night of working the night shifts for the base. Let’s just say, it fucking sucks. I am sitting on the flight line with my laptop. I’m not supposed to use it but you know what, there is no way I can stay awake off just radio and staring at the planes. So I’m using it to help the time go by a ( Read more... )

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