Have you ever been so attached, that a simple harmful thought makes you sick to your stomach? The idea that what you cherish may be taken from you. Something that means so much, and how easily it can be ripped from your hands. Have your dreams been replaced by tears and your hopes covered up by fears? Have you ever found the one thing in life ( Read more... )

What to say.. what to say? I'm so... mixed right now. Not really sure where my head is, so I guess I will just rant. I got a bank account this morning. I was all excited about that, but I don't get my card for like two weeks. Not really like I need it that much or anything though. My baby didn't leave me the whole weekend either. He was home ( Read more... )

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If I could ask life for one thing, I would ask to lighten up. Even in this request, all I can do is cry. Seems that's all I can do recently. I'd better get back to it now... Until later, bye.

I don't know what it is. Something inside me hurts so bad, and I am terribly sad, I think, and I can't understand why. Nothing has happenned, no one has said anything, no one has done anything... so why am I hurting so bad? I want to just curl up and cry for hours, but can't do that. The only good thing about it is that I'm not thinking for ( Read more... )

Mmmm indecency and lack of consideration. How great is it. I mean like, isn't it wonderful when you are treated with one or both of the two? OMG @ I love it >.< So yeah, I had to do a lot of coding for security reasons of the game I run and I got to doze here and there, but for the most part, I was awake until like 8-9 AM in which I finally get ( Read more... )

I think more and more that I am becoming 'emo'. All I can do is sit here and ask myself "Why?" Everything that I looked at as some blessing that I am gifted with is no more than a curse that I can't get rid of. I am a thinker and a dreamer. I can learn so much because of it and my imagination is broad, which also allows me to be more liberal ( Read more... )

I think I just took one more step toward being 'normal.' I just decided that in a few years, I'm moving far away from here, and severring all ties with my family. And I mean ALL ties. I've decided I want no communication with them. Disowning I guess you could call it. I'm out. This family thing is stupid, and I disagree with it, so once I'm ( Read more... )

Crying doesn't feel the same without the shoulder there.

This is for all those people who feel angsty about a rough childhood with their parents.

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side
So I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust
Not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid