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Moving
The Anime Community I hosted all this time on some webservers that I've rented has gone down. I couldn't care less at the time. I'm sure some members are wondering why, and others are annoyed about it because of her. I guess you could say is that I had the site up ever since because I was interested in her. Then again, I go to think that the site ( Read more... ) -
Unnoticed
It's been confirmed that she's leaving for the US/Canada by the end of the week. She still hasn't talked to me ever since. I was okay with that, and in fact, still trying to get over it. A friend of mine suggested that I send her some flowers, I'm considering it but I don't know what she's thinking. There are many things that I don't know about her ( Read more... ) -
I can't win
I realize that I can never get over the fact that she's never the same and I'm never the same. I'm still uneasy around her and maybe I forever will.
I've overheard. She's leaving on the 7th of September. Maybe it would be better this way. I can concentrate on redeeming myself in work, and she can concentrate on living her life the way she wants it ( Read more... ) -
Strike that
Strike what I said about the other day that I was getting better. I just think its getting worse. I'm starting to loose it all over again. All because of this morning.
It just so happens that we meet at the elevator at the same time. First of all, its kinda hard for me to see us like this because we used to cuddle and kiss each other when going ( Read more... ) -
How wonderful
'Sup. I think I'm getting a bit better as each day passes, but then again, I still can't help but think of what has happened. Am I that sad? A lot of thinking going on again, and a lot of things done to divert myself from what's really happening. Acceptance is a really difficult thing to surmount to.
I've been hearing her constantly talk through ( Read more... ) -
Yes I'm reading
In the late hours of the working day, while finishing my work quota, I stumble upon an unknown blog and believe it to be her's. She was keeping this secret I think but in some strange twist of fate, I happen to find it. What she mentioned in it is unmistakeably her. The love that I know. I don't know if I should have just kept quiet, but I left a ( Read more... ) -
A good talk
Sometimes it takes someone else to get you out of your slump. A friend of mine, who've I've never met personally, well... an online friend, suddenly pops up out of nowhere. It appears that my love has been talking with her so she knows we broke up.
I can't thank her enough for comforting me and trying to get me out of this predicament. She's ( Read more... ) -
Changing colors
If she only knew how terrible I feel right now. But that's the whole point isn't it? Everything I feel and do, she no longer cares so why should I worry? I still can't let go and its killing me so badly inside. It seems that with each passing day that we parted ways, I become a lot worse.
I think I've developed Tourette's Syndrome, calling out her ( Read more... ) -
It ain't easy
I've finally talked to her once more but it was strictly work-related. Its hard to put on a "work" face knowing that talking to her is more different than it used to be. I'm still not comfortable with looking at her because it just reminds me of the times when we snuggled together and kissed her numerous times on the cheek.
Stray. I don't think I ( Read more... ) -
Along the road
I ask myself ever since that faithful day. How am I doing so far? Am I who I used to be before I met her? Am I the lonely and quiet person like I used to be? Have I gotten over her? All I can do now is ask countless questions and what ifs ( Read more... )