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Broken...
I'm beginning to think that the saying "it is better to have love and lost than never to have loved at all", is not entirely true. I have loved and lost but the pain that I bear is just overwhelming. Its now officially half a year since we've parted ways. She still contacts me from time to time. A text message here, an email there. All the while I' ( Read more... ) -
So that's what the fuss is about.
It is surely painful to see some other guy flirting with her. I know I have no right to be mad since I'm now an "ex", but I can't take it. I must leave soon if I still want to keep my sanity in check. I really must leave soon. I just can't let go. I still love her and I wonder what she's thinking. The stuff she does even though she doesn't mean for ( Read more... ) -
Why must you?
She's dressed to kill as always. That's one of the things I like about her so much. I miss those days when she was mine. When I can cling to her freely. The days when we chatted and cuddled in that coffee shop that only the two of us knew. The day when we told secrets to each other and the days when we always said that we loved each other.
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Resist
When the months passs by and you think that you'd be able to handle it, everything just falls apart. I'm a creature of the shadow that is destined to never see the light. I'm destined to be alone, never wanting to love or never wanting to be loved. As I journey through, I can't help but wonder what she thinks about me now. Am I just another ( Read more... ) -
Back from the Blue
My beloved has returned from her trip. I still can't face her. She is as cute and charming as ever. I wish I could tell her how much I've missed her and still love her. I did PM her through Skype but it was all work-related ( Read more... ) -
What dreams mean
Its been 2 months and how am I doing? Still pretty messed up, though calling her name has lessened a bit. Am I loosing it? I still long for her, not anyone, but her alone. And to prove this I think I had another dream, but what's weird is I know it was her but I couldn't see her face ( Read more... ) -
Another dream
Why is it that I'm having these dreams of her with such frequency again? She's there with her hand gently caressing my face. She whispers to me in my ear saying everything is going to be alright. Then she kisses me and tells me to be quiet.
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Best Friends
She finally replied to my email. She still considers me as her best friend. So far she avoided most of the "stuff" that I've apologized for and said that the situation was beyond our control. I still can't read her mind. does she still like me? Should I be happy that she considers me her best friend ( Read more... ) -
Fairytale
A simple plebian could not understand why his beloved master would die for such a cause that seems to make no sense. Yet, they choose to lock in matrimony and go along with the flow. Yet this plebian deceives his beloved master in order to save her from her own pride. Can she not see that her familiar, even with strong resentment to the war, is ( Read more... ) -
No Goodbye
I still have no idea how long she'll be gone. Today, all I'm doing is trying to catch a glimpse of her, listening to her speak and listening to her beautiful singing voice. She's also dressed up pretty today. She's become a bit thinner. Oh how I wish she was still mine. It has been almost 2 months since that fateful day. I still can't get over it. ( Read more... )