To: whoever decides to read this

[exoduslife]

i cant think anymore. i just.....can't think. why am i always so depressed? why is it that i find one great thing in life....and it just vanishes on me. only to be replaced by another great thing......which does the same thing

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pretty serious

[teamkitty]

for a smart guy like you it's very serious. i'm sure i can understand that you feel no one understands.
I'm not sure why you are in pain, i hope that it will solve itself, i offer you a prayer.

Good happiness seems to come too slowly - I can only offer my thoughts to you.

Re: pretty serious

[exoduslife]

(sigh). it's her. i recently found out that she had been having an affair less than five months after we got married. all the happinness. all the love. all the smiles. all the joy. all lies. all a trick. just for me to give her money. and she never even told me. i had to hear it from someone else. and it's a really credible source.

it was all a mirage to me. and i crumble from the inside like powder. like the sand and dust where mirages are seen.

i just can't get over how badly she used me. and i have nothing to comfort me. maybe one thing. but that's a different story and i still have pain.

Re: pretty serious

[teamkitty]

I'm sorry. If that was that case it's rather hard to believe - you two seemed to be so in love. I can only say that you need to let go and focus on helping yourself. You are still here - and need to work on making yourself strong.

Re: pretty serious

[exoduslife]

apparently it was a one-way street. only i did the "loving".