so i'm at work for the break....yah....the money is the only reason i'm nice to these people. other than that the servers at outback are my new family. i love them so much :)

this is hard to say but it needs to be said and i'm finally ready to say it.... i've been hurt so badly by so many people. it seemed the madness wouldn't end unless i ended it and the only way i knew how to end it was to end my own life. i've had 3 suicide attempts over the last 4 years and i wear 7 scars from self-mutilation. did you know that? it ( Read more... )

I can remember the very first time I cried
How I wiped my eyes and buried the pain inside
All of my memories - good and bad - that's past
Didn't even take the time to realize

Starin' at the cracks in the walls
Cuz I'm waiting for it all to come to an end
Still I curl up right under the bed
Cuz its takin' over my head all over again

Do you even know who you ( Read more... )

Happy Birthday to me! Finally 18 mother fucker! Now, who wants to vote so badly but can't and is willing to pay me big bucks to vote for them? want porn? call me up and i'll get it for ya, just gotta pay me for my services. same goes for smoking substances. ah, i feel so free. not really, but i have the legal ability to be 'free' i guess.

she finds love in all the wrong places.
the same situation.
just different faces.

i can only think of 3 or 4 people that would miss me if i erased myself from this place.

Nobody could make me happy until i met him. Nobody could take away the pain i hold inside. Nobody could love me for me. Nobody made me feel beautiful. He gives me a reason to stop hurting myself. He makes feel like i matter. He makes me regret every scar i brought upon myself. He makes me love every curve of my body. Around him, i don't feel ( Read more... )

this is such a sad song...it makes me wanna cry...

"Thank-You Note"

As she woke up for the final injection
The sickness was hard
When there was no one around
And it spread to her hands
And it spread to her legs
And they felt like the mud from the pond on the ground
That she played in as a kid
What she did to deserve this
While her friends were at parties
She ( Read more... )

i've fallen in love with this song -

"She Will Be Loved"

Beauty queen of only eighteen
She had some trouble with herself
He was always there to help her
She always belonged to someone else

I drove for miles and miles
And wound up at your door
I've had you so many times but somehow
I want more

I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the ( Read more... )