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i would like to know which portion of my brain accounts for absolute sadness so i could lobotomize it. -
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treatment was alright but very general/useless and i've gone right back to where i was. -
a do-over of the previous entry.
the next available date for rehab is the 4th. it still feels weird and surreal. i've been fucked up since what, when i was 12? cutting. pills. more pills. alcohol. anorexia. bulimia. EDNOS. more pills & alcohol. drugs and opiates and stupidity, oh my ( Read more... ) -
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i'm being forced by family into an inpatient hospitalization centre. i'm not bothered by the idea. maybe it hasn't sunk in yet. -
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My life is weird. I'm over my ED, but still fucked up. I love how I switch from one addiction to the other. My brain is like, "Hey, it's over! Here's a new problem to transition to."
Hello, inexorable abnormality. It's good to know you'll never leave. -
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i love and hate everything, it's so fickle ( Read more... ) -
relief is the monster under your bed that you learn to accept is there, and he loves your company.
things do get better. it's all i can say. things just get better.
i've found something that completely alters my thinking patterns--my hope--and while the overlord voice of relapse booms out its reprimands for my indulgence in what will, one day, be normalcy, the once-browbeaten voice of reason is no longer a mute ( Read more... ) -
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http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CazhoE1TyWI
people keep relating her to lady gaga which is ridiculous but damn, i shouldn't have started listening to dubstep this morning
oh god is it addictive