I feel like my life is this crazy merry-go-round. Nauseating and constantly spinning in 3 dimensions. People, faces, & moments spin by so fast... sometimes it's years before I realize I should have tried to focus on one. The important ones? Picking out those select few. I hope I can get better about slowing down, cutting out the crap, and paying ( Read more... )

It's been 6 days without a cigarette.
I want to kill everyone.
fuck this.

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The beginnings of My life's List of Things To Do ( Read more... )

Since I got home from CA and made the decision to move back, I've been feeling like shit. I've been sick with swollen tonsils, a cough, congestion & earaches. My back has been sunburned and peeling terribly. I'm still not talking to my best friend. The thought of telling people I'm leaving has been making my heart ache ( Read more... )

Still feeling lonely. But I realized this morning that it's not because I'm not dating/fucking/flirting with anyone at the moment. I've been pulling away from everyone for weeks now... waiting for them to come to me, and when that doesn't happen I pull back farther... wondering why I don't have any close friends. This used to be a normal ( Read more... )

who cares?

weird weekend.

beach
booze
fire dancers
more booze
old friends
no sleep
hangovers
more booze
80's dance party
cops playing twister
no sleep
flaky friends
lonely

I don't know what to do with myself. I got home last night from Sasquatch, my first 3-day music festival experience. I've rewritten this next line 6 times now.... nothing seems to fit. I still can't find the words to describe what happened out there. It was refreshing & exactly what I needed it to be. I don't want to be home right now. I don't ( Read more... )

We have satellite radio at work & they recently updated their content and added a couple new stations. Yesterday I put on the 90's station for the first time & this is what the first hour of my morning sounded like ( Read more... )

I think it's only been 2 weeks that I've been running in the morning, I really can't remember. I don't care, I'm not counting. Today felt different. The initial hill I have to climb didn't wind me, my shin splints are gone, my calf cramps are gone and I was able to run farther than normal without feeling like my chest was going to explode. I ( Read more... )