heres a pointless entry:

went to the gynie today. 
not pregnant- obvi
appearantly it's normal to not get my period for MOOOOONTHS at a time with the pill i am on
wish i knew that earlier
more purple fingers to shove up my crotch
yum

welll
it's all over now
again.
i have a pretty bad rep for '08
whatever,
it was worth every moment.
no regrets.
couldn't have been any other way
more to update later,
also some poetry
but i always say that
and never follow through
i see a long string of pointless entries after this.
i's rather be spooning than dreading this paper.

destiny or chemicals
emotions are susceptible.

...
more to explain later
i spose now really isn't the time.
yes, definitely not
i am such a crock of shit
but i needed to put something down

 i just called my mom to make a dr's appointment ( Read more... )

 i burned out yesterday ( Read more... )

another passively angry entry

this is repetitive

i'm starting to miss some things again. stupid summer weather reminding me of stuff. i'm stuck half in memory. fuck

 i'm undecided about you again...

i can't wait for school to be over
and i've been loving all of these dance parties
and i need to decide when im visiting the brosef

level  of douchebagdom achieved.
i give up, im tired of this game
and now i just feel like a fucking pawn

this is repetitive
that nothing has changed
am i crazy?

everyone can seriously lick my ass

i'm overanalyzing as usual ( Read more... )

i should probably write
because the way i'm feeling right now illicits writing
i just don't know what to say
i know this feeling will fade in the next 15 minutes, but i'm so fucking isolated right now. i've shut down agggaaain. 
i'd rather just ignore it all and pretend my life is steady. 
steady steady
steady going nowhere