2:00 AM Sunday July 19th. Yesturday was her birthday. I would have thought that it wouldn't bother me any more but it still hurts. She is one of only a couple of people who have left their tatoo upon my heart, and there has always been something different and deeper about her's. I am not opening the door to that part of my life, Hell it opens ( Read more... )

I hate to say this but.....I am missing her. Damn.

The Patriots won the Super Bowl! The Patriots won the Super Bowl! The Patriots won the...no wait a minute...Heh-heh-heh THE GIANTS WON!
18 and NONE!!!!!!

(That felt good!)

Happy birthday (belated) to Alexander Malone Horta, so the grapevine says is his last name.

Three or four weeks ago I had one of my dreams, the kind I've had since Liz. I am not one to usually be bothered by dreams but these chill me down to my soul, they frighten the shit out of me. I cry like a little girl. They disturb me all day and something bad has always happened to her. Of course I can not tell her - she doesn't want to ( Read more... )

I am so disapointed today.. I am disapointed sad, mad, hurt, and empty that I......OH Fuuck! I can't even fucking talk about it now, SHIT1

"...I've been through diamonds, I've been through minks, I've been through it all - love stinks ( Read more... )

By myself late at night I sit and type my thoughts the house is deserted except for me, she is gone to the beach with a friend leaving me alone and yet not lonely, not like when she is here, being alone together is a feeling that at times is not unlike despair and the lack of physical contact, that generated by the other person, numbs you to your ( Read more... )

How long can you try and still be ignored ( Read more... )

Yesterday was her birthday - fuck.

I did not send a card or right or anything - but I wanted to.

I can't believe that she still matters to me, but she does.

I remembered how happy we were on the last birthday that we were together how she - aww never mind.

Yesterday was her birthday - fuck.