Wow am i tired, but the last week and a half or so were totally worth it. I'd even feel like this just for that one night :) but yeah, the beach, dance camp, the relay - all totally awesome! it was so incredibly nice to sleep in my own bed last night though lol. im sad though too, tara's gone again :'( and now i have to go to work :P

woohoo! i got a job! i got a job! haha it's lame but im excited because i REALLY need money!! it's like christening me into being old though... ugh

Why does this feel more like a prolonged weekend than summer?

OoOoOoOo! I might get to go to the beach with thomas for fourth of july!!!! how much fun would that be!?

When i say unforgiveable, i don't literally mean it, it's not like i'll never forgive you, it's more like, unforgiveable in the sense that i will never have you as a part of my life again. You will be forgiven, i can't stand carrying around hatred and anger for very long, trust me. But you will never be readmitted into my life. That is my " ( Read more... )

why?
all i want from you is WHY

Sometimes it's hard to believe it all even happened...

Well, tara's leaving, for like EVER, and it royally blows... who are we gonna have those talks with tara t? :( sad day ( Read more... )

WOW, god, i can't believe summer's already here, its like rediculous... this year went by SO fast. time seems to be doing that lately, like there's never quite enough of it... like it's spiraling down or something... i find myself always scrambling at the last minute... but maybe i just procrastinate way too much... but still its REDICULOUS summer ( Read more... )

I honestly and firmly believe that sometimes, it's easier to be angry and hate, than to be sad and greive... and that often people will find an excuse to feel anger, rather than deal with their pain. Because anger means you can cut it off, and leave it behind, without remorse. I see, and have seen this in so many people, including myself...

in the end, it all comes down to whether or not the good is worth the bad...

What if it's not all as perfect as I'd wished, as i'd like everyone to believe... It's just one of those days, where you're depressed for no real reason at all... ever have those? Maybe i'm just scared... spilling all my darkest secrets makes me feel very vulnerable. i don't want things to work like they did last time... i don't want it to absorb ( Read more... )