I think for now i'm resigning from my lj.... i dont really know why... i just dont feel like writing anymore i suppose... Hm, wonder when i'll start this all again...

Hm, havent updated in a long while... unusual! been busy i guess? lol, i dont really know, god, my memory is horrid. but OMG!!!! i got kinda tan!!!!!!! woo hoo!!! its been sooooo nice, its officially summer, too bad we still have a whole freakin trimester left!! ugh! school's such a waste of time, seriously, i like NEVER do ANYTHING there, w/e. ( Read more... )

Forgiveness feels good, i think syds right about what i should do, i just don't know that i can bring myself to do it. I'd really want it all to go a certain way, and i'm not really sure what i'd do if it didn't... It seems like i should be mad, and i still kinda am, but it makes it so much harder looking at all the aspects of the situation, and ( Read more... )

Our love is dead but without limit, It is not these hiding places ( Read more... )

So you know how they say "out of sight out of mind"? well, you know how they also say "absence makes the heart grow fonder"? well, which one is true? you know? they cant BOTH be true can they? it just wouldnt work. Is it a case by case basis, or is there a universal truth to one? For me personally, i find it to often be the latter that holds truth ( Read more... )

So me and syd were talking today, yeah, i figured out the worst way imaginable to die lol, seriuosly. I wanna coreograph a dance to arc of time real bad... i wish i could like actually dance, i would do it like all the time, just dance around, thatd be freakin rad. I wish i was graceful, thatd be pretty kewl. haha too bad im the biggest klutz of ( Read more... )

So today i took my aunt and uncle to the airport, i was just watching people walking down the terminal, to their plane, from their plane, rolling their suitcases along behind them, down the turquoise-green carpet, and i would have given just about anything to be one of them. i was so incredibly jealous. I love it, traveling, just the feeling you ( Read more... )

So, what's fair????? how about nothing? why is that? It's just not fair, life, everything in it - especially the whole deal where other peoples decisions have huge impact on your life, how fair is that? not at all. it makes me frustrated, because just so much seems like its out of my control, and yet it all influences my life in giant ways. Yeah, ( Read more... )

Hm, not a lot has been going on lately, shocking i know... just tons of school and homework, i've developed a strong feeling of apathy towards school lately, i just don't do anything anymore, unless its in class. All i really want to do is drive around with syd, listening to music, talking, and interior decorating haha, i like the independent ( Read more... )

Through all this mess ( Read more... )