this moving thing is so complicated. especially when it was supposed to be our adventure ( Read more... )

i am going through the motions of life. empty. void.
i just want to wake up from this nightmare.
i want my life back.

i know i have given the universe net positive energy.
i didnt deserve this.
i deserve her.

so today is the first day her truck was gone ( Read more... )

i just feel so empty.
like i have no purpose or meaning.

i just want my life with her back.

open letter to my love ( Read more... )

i reread her lj today. all of the entries from the last 5.5 years. we even had a special filter to write to each other ( Read more... )

i just hope she knows how much i love her...even just a fraction of how much i love her.
i worry that i could have done more to show her.

i just love her so much.

seriously. if lindsey has the balls to enter her new house in apartment therapy's fall color contest, i really should enter mine. i mean hello high contrast modern. libby thinks paint palace looks like a magazine. that counts for something, right? lindsey has lovely baby blue paint on her walls. i have her baby blue walls and plus a black ( Read more... )

i am good at making messes.
if only cleaning them up were easy.

a year ago i never would have guessed this is where i would be.
so empty...but so close to the potential of being great....
look for me there.

/emo post.

se habla espanol.
amazing.