I GOT INTO COLLEGE!

he told me that im the reason he wants to die.
that im the reason he tried to kill himself.

the world is fucked up.
if it isnt sucking the life out of you,
then its biting you in the ass.

ugh.
gross.

i think im falling apart, little by little actually. my ability to do homework has diminished, my ability to stay awake in class has disappeared, and my ability to stop lying to myself will never return. i havnt done anything productive in the longest time. i cant eat, i cant sleep, and sometimes when i wake up i just want to cry. sometimes i lay ( Read more... )

life kinda sucks.
no matter how hard you try,
something always takes you down.

i love someone will all of my heart.
but it seems, like his heart is a lot bigger than mine.

and knowing that i might lose him, my life.

scares me.

so if im asked one more question about college...

ill scream.

so ive decided.
the only thing i want to do in life,
is to make a difference
when no one is watching.

im bound to mess up.

this way,
when no one is watching,
if i mess up,
they wont know.

and ill keep trying until it works.

have you even had that feeling where you are sitting in your room, and you are just sitting there, thinking and wondering whether or not you want to live or die? and if people would really care if you did? or if you did, what people would do if you died? and if they would just continue life like nothing every happened, and just ignore the fact ( Read more... )

my family is a huge shit whole.

and i hate it