I miss you and i miss the thought of dreaming what it would be like to have a future & grow old with you....
three days ago I lost that dream's ability of becoming a reality.

I really need to re-learn how to enjoy life itself again

I no longer can keep doing this.

There are always 2 sides to every story the question is do we choose to listen to both sides or actually take the truth for what it really is?

Like fucking clockwork....

Its amazing how one word can change everything, your perception, your actions, your thoughts. In world war II after the first bomb was dropped on japan, the Japanese sent a letter of surrender but because 1 word was misinterpreted the US dropped the second bomb ( Read more... )

I have a Christmas tree I barley got to see....oh well so much for enjoying that

These next few months are going to be a true test of my Patience and I WILL NOT FAULTIER.

I've grown so NUMB to emotion, last night was the first time ive actually cried in probably about 4 or 5 years....i didn't cry when my business crashed, not even when either of my grandfathers' passed away....last night freaked me out because for once i lost control of my emotions.

It has been an interesting week to say the least Family, socially, work wise, emotionally, living situation etc ( Read more... )