you were kind when we were younger - small doses of the mundane "how are you"s and "all the best" for my important events. i believed in you when we were younger - i thought you to be brave, counterculture and kind. but as we grew into our own worlds i saw that you were never the figure in my mind.

the warmth to end the night
that smile that burns bright

Let's get rich and buy our parents homes in the south of France
Let's get rich and buy everybody nice sweaters and teach them how to dance
Let's get rich and build our house on the mountains making everybody look like ants
From way up there, you and I, you and I

sang this in lab w leire on friday. i love it when the lab is emptier sometimes 

after having a talk w nina and nuo last night, i can't help but feel a little disappointed with myself. i think im at a state where i get so independent i forgot about what it means to love people (not them, but the +2), feel like i could have said a lot more things to those two boys. my heart is so off from where i want it to be. it is truly so ( Read more... )

having the time of my life ^^ having the best travel buddies i can ask for.
seriously love our dynamics and pacing and everything. and thankful for the +1 for one night and the current +2 for 4 nights. girls are fun and crazy but sometimes its nice to have guys (i suppose it depends on who) around too.

i could live like this!!!

i really attract drama wherever i go dont i ( Read more... )

while there are so many things i would no doubt be gaining when i go overseas, there are so many things i am giving up to go overseas ( Read more... )

It'll be a miracle to even get through this year. Musical practices are thrice a week now, trying to rush out my publication, taking the two gre tests, applying for grad school which calls for a million and one things, maintaining my cap and fyp ( Read more... )

this is the first time im ever panicking over a writing assignment. please do not let this be a self-fulfilling prophecy.
i should be happy because I have been given the chance to do what I always wanted: intensive brain work & intensive music
but its not just the doing that matters and neither is it about my happiness...

joy.

Why do I not have more patience to just wait? Good things are worth waiting for right?

I used to be idealistic but these ideals only made me unhappy. I have been so unhappy the past year. so I became practical: let's just live in the moment shall we not? Sometimes over thinking about consequences is just too much. Have some while we are still ysf