She is going to be the death of US

Why dont I trust the situation? This isnt like me i am not the jealous person AT ALL .. but it looks to be that way now. I feel like there is a huge secret that I don' t know about.. This is one of the hardest struggles that i have to deal with ... I think I am holding on to 5 lil words that crushed all my trust but if they were alll innocent why ( Read more... )

I am sick of how many comments I am getting right now .
yes in a way its a compliment in the other its starting to make me feel like a offer.
Like today a guy I work with goes "If you lost alot of weight you would get sooo many guys"

I have not seen or written in my lj in years ( Read more... )

I am so lonely its rediculous!!
I am going crazy in my own mind!! 
I need this boythat doesnt excist to me... 
Em I going to fucking be alone forever..
Before I turned 18 I didnt have a 
problem with getting boyfriends 
WTF happened???!

I never understood that saying take one day at a time.. 
probably because i cant do that .... 
I take all the days that are coming towards
me and carry them everyday that i walk...

I just relized how bad my future anxiety really is
thats all i can think about is the future.. 
not the good stuff if there is any to look 
forward to. 
But just the bad stuff
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i DONT KNOW WHY IAM WRITING ABOUT THIS 
JUST FOUND IT CUTE I GUESS... 
BUT A GIRL THAT I WORK WITH SAID TO ME
"YOUR THE ONLY GIRL THAT I CAN SEE WEARING A BLACK POLKA DOT DRESS WITH RED HIGH HEELS" 
HAHAHAHA THATS ME ALRIGHT ... 
I WANT THAT OUT FIT NOW ... 
WHOS BUYING FOR ME??? 
ANYONE..
ANYONE 
ANYONE?

WELL I TOOK MY ADMISSIONS TEST FOR SPECS HOWARD TODAY
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Here iam at work..
texting someone that i thought cared a lil more then she actually does.. 
what is it about me where no one fucking gives a damn about me... 
Iam frickin nice to all my friends i call them to see how they are doing
to see if they want to do somthing 
or hell even to say hi...
if something traumatic happens i call them everyday to see ( Read more... )

Yesterday my life had changed ( Read more... )

I dont know 
I dont know

I feel like a tonado has gone through my head at this point in time
I am glad i feel like this at work for 9 hours straight

The things I am scared of right now are....
-Not knowing what i really want to do and just going on what I THINK i would like to do for the rest of my life.
-my math class
-my insurance payment 
-having a new ( Read more... )