I need to stop expressing my thoughts on here....too vulnerable to showing true colors...I can't let people know everything I think right? It's dangerous. It could hurt people...upset people...give them the wrong message..or maybe it could hurt me. Who knows. I think I'll start to restrain my thoughts...censor them ( Read more... )

I dunno why. "But I can't...just...sight the truth..and keep smilin..in your face." I do it anyway. Thinking theres a great possibility I'm wrong ( Read more... )

Another line from that of a young man coming into adulthood whom soon realizes he may have to grow up faster then he expects ( Read more... )

She's trying to piss me off. She's fucking annoying. I'm about..to fucking..snap. Someone give me some valium and put me to sleep. -.-

I dunno. Maybe they were all right. Maybe all the voices...both real AND in my mind...maybe I should just give up. If she wanted us to work she would have been able to make it work with me.

I dunno. I feel like shit right about now.

Things are awkward. I guess. I dunno...what more can I do right? Hrmm...Im kinda confused about all this. She says she wants to be with me but she will probably do stuff with other guys and we're still broken up so I dunno...hrmm..maybe I need to stay away from her. I dunno. Kinda weird. I hate this but I think I know what I have to do...but ( Read more... )

I dunno what to do....

I think this is my best option. Detach myself till she's ready to be attached to me again...I can't feel for someone more then they do for me...Not again. I won't do it again. I'm done with feeling like my whole world is falling atop my shoulders and It's slowly crushing me. Im ready to be normal again. Once and for all.

Life has been different lately. Im older. Im different. Ive changed. Ive become something else. No maybe not a monster yet..but I've been wrong before. I love my girlfriend and I'd give up anything for her. Thats just the way things are. I need help with this though...she wants me to trust her...so i will. She wants to trust me..and I will give her ( Read more... )

What more can I do? I'm human....I'm actually kinda happy now...but I dunno...feels like theres still more to do...hrrmmm on a lighter note..I made good money today at work...w00! :)

"If you can't feel...are you still considering human?"

I wonder..

I feel...that's my greatest strength and my lone weakness...

Kinda always feel that way....not sure if certain things are real...or even possible...but yeah...that's just me.

Hrrm...what to do...I don't know who's interested in what...who sees more...who sees less...who wants what or who...It's all just making me dizzy...I need an aspirin...

ugh...what to do.