I'm not fat. I know that. I'm a perfectly healthy weight, but I could lose ten pounds and still be at a healthy weight, which is really what I would prefer. But it seems like no matter what I do, I can't get my body to look the way I want it to. I exercise more than all of my friends. I'm a good runner, it's no problem to go out and run three miles ( Read more... )

I hit 136.2 today which made me really happy. It's slightly depressing because I remember the first time I hit 126 and how exciting it was. I can't even imagine getting there now ( Read more... )

Being back at home, not eating UC food all the time, and watching a ridiculous amount of The Biggest Loser has quite inspired me to start watching my weight again. I don't think I really realized how horrifically I was eating while at school. Quiznos, ice cream, M&Ms, bagels whenever I wanted. And I really got very little exercise this year. The ( Read more... )

I just made myself throw up (soberly) for the first time in a long time, and I don't even feel the slightest bit guilty about it. Barely anything even came out, and my throat actually feels better than it did earlier.

Back to math.

Ok, well... After writing that entry last night I immediately dropped to the floor and did a bunch of crunches and leg-lift things. Then I ran three miles on the treadmill. Hooray for motivation ( Read more... )

*guilty look ( Read more... )

I'm just about ready to have a complete mental breakdown over my laptop. It just broke. Completely broke for absolutely no fucking reason at all. Does anybody know what 'unmountable boot volume' means and how I should fix it? *cries* I'm trying to persuade myself that it won't be the end of the world if I lose all my files. What do I have that isn' ( Read more... )

It was a little strange last night, because I felt like I had eaten A TON, but when I thought about it, I really hadn't. I had oatmeal for breakfast, and then nothing until 4:00 when I ate a lean cuisine and graham cracker. We went out to dinner, and I ordered a salad with grilled chicken, which wasn't very good, so I really only ate the chicken ( Read more... )

I fared really well last night at the Tigers game. My dad had said that he was just planning on getting dinner at the game, which worried me, because it would be really difficult to find low cal food at the stadium. Hot dogs and pizzas don't really cut it... But he apparently changed his mind, because on the way home from work yesterday he told me ( Read more... )

Yesterday, baking ended up backfiring into quite a binge. Ugh... I lost count of how many cookies I ate. My weight didn't change from yesterday though, so that's good. I need to stop weighing myself every day. Last week I promised myself that I would only weigh myself weekly, but that didn't last very long. Maybe I'll try twice a week. Tuesdays and ( Read more... )