god it's getting so hard. every breath every day i have to wake up and face the same miserable excuse of a life is wearing me down a little more each time. there's not one person who truly knows how i'm feeling. i don't talk to anybody anymore. i'm resorting back to the person i once was. and i don't know if this is a good thing or a bad thing. i ( Read more... )

yes yes i'm listening to my good old country mix. gah. i love this stuff. so yesterday, was, terrible. dad's in the hospital. somethings going on with his heart. i'm worried. i also got into a three hour scream fest with my mother. let me tell you that was an enjoyable expiernce. aka i wanted to kill myself. so yesterday just all around sucked. but ( Read more... )

so basically i told somebody something that i shouldnt have. thinking they were a trust worthy person, and the past couple of weeks he has proven me more then wrong. so i'm freaking out, because i know that if he gets pissed off at me he could let it "slip". and i dont want that happening. god i just dont know what to do i'm seriously freaking out ( Read more... )

prom was about a week ago. it was pretty decent. except my stomach started hurting. nothing else has really gone down, except i have a fan fucking tastic layout now.

well, the horrid paper is finally finished. thank christ. i've become unbelievably lazy. its kind of ridciulous(sp??). and once again my stomach is acting up, i seriously feel like shooting myself. today was fun i hung out with jenna, bri, nick, justin, madi, cody, jd. like seriously i saw tons of people throughout the day today. it was fun. um, no ( Read more... )

so here i sit, on a laptop at school, staring at a paper i swear a fourteen year old must have wrote. how did my writing get so terrible? or was it always this bad and i just never knew? Good lord, i don't know what is worse. believing i was a decent writer for so long, or getting in a funk i just cannot get out of. i wish i could fix this, but i ( Read more... )

everything is beyond stressful right now. in all seriousness. but i have to admit that this layout is absolutely amazing. ps school sucks. gah i cant wait for the summer.

wow. so i bascially haven't written at all since before the start of senior year. It's weird to look back at this. for so long it was a safe haven. well the conclusion of my senior year is drawing near. doubts about college and the "future"[a word i have seriously grown to despise] have set in. what kind of person thought it was a good idea to let ( Read more... )

senior years about to start. . .horrah!

well i'm leaving june 25th for michigan until the 11th. i'm excited. uh other than that things are normal. so in other words. . . boring. eh, whatever